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Monday, April 08, 2013

Today, I got up very early and went someplace I wish I never had to go...court.
One of my dearest friends in the world went on trial today for murder.
Nearly one year ago, he shot and killed a man who was trying to illegally and forcibly enter his home.
He shot the man, as he grabbed the front door of his home and jerked it open, after being told to friend, didnt know if the man was armed or not, so he wasnt willing to take a chance.
He then, along with his mother, who lived right next door, heard the shot and came running over, tried to administer cpr to the man, tried to help ease him, with blankets and comfort and called 911...
However, after talking to the police, my friend, instead of being upheld as a law abiding homeowner, who has a right as an American citizen to bear arms, and who also has a permit to carry concealed weapons, was branded a murderer.
It has been a long 10 months.
Stressful on my friend and his wife and family.
I dread these next days coming...I know I will hear thing about my friend and it will hurt.
Today, after 3 hours of jury selection, I had to leave, I couldnt stay and wait it out to see if the trial would begin, which it did after I had come home.
It pained me that I had to leave, because I have told my friend that I will never leave his side or stop supporting him.
I see fear in his eyes now.
I want to spend as much time with him as I can....just in case!!!
So, I ate a big ol sausage biscuit from one of the quick marts and I ate a turkey sub from Subway and I ate a poptart and I ate a 100 calorie snack pack and I wish like hell I felt like just getting drunk, but I dont!!!
And, besides, it would neither change the situation or make me feel better.
So, I will workout, lift weights, ride my bike and drink my water and try not to snack anymore the rest of the day, eat the other half of my sub for dinner and hopefully relax, maybe take a long bubble bath and wish all these situations with my friends and my home life and my health, such as my broken foot would hurry up and be resolved and done!!!!
More about the foot tomorrow, as I prepare for my ortho visit on Friday....
have a nice healthy evening to everyone/
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    I'm sorry you had a stressful day. I'm sorry you are hurting for your friend.
    We know there will always be these hard days in our lives; we can wish them away and feel victimized or face them with the knowledge that "this too shall pass." Turning to exercise was smart. You did, however, kinda get drunk on food. Escaping. I understand this b/c I'm a stress-eater too. It's what we grew up knowing. I wish I had learned to just go into the woods and hit a tree with a stick or something instead. I liked trees too much, I guess. Myself, not so much, so killing myself with food was the easier answer.
    Praying for you today. Warm weather is here. Maybe you can potter around outside, pick up the yard to be mowed later. Pull some weeds from a flower bed or some other nice outdoor constructive activity. Or maybe you can write in a journal, get all these feelings out on paper. Or get in some target practice. Be kind to yourself. You deserve it. You've been a good friend.
    2755 days ago
    I'd say you had a stressful day!

    And you didn't do that bad considering...

    Stay strong - for both you and your friend.
    2755 days ago
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