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Another resolution gone bad.

Monday, April 30, 2007

I have made it my job NOT to make New Year's resolutions. They only make me feel like a failure. Well, this year I caved. I resolved to live healthier. Every week signified a peak or valley of my rollercoaster ride. One week I feel like I am on top of the world...I have logged in miles on my treadmill and my kids' red wagon doesn't feel heavy anymore, I carry around a gallon jug of water throughout the day AND finish it. One day, I even did cartwheels in the middle of the track and taught my son how to do handstands. Alas, Monday rolls around...again. But this Monday feels different. The chips and cheese sauce have found their way into my cupboard. That gallon jug of water has been replaced with a Diet Coke (or six). Spending an hour at the park seems like a chore.

I'd like to get off this ride. I'd like to not think about it all the time. I'd like to enjoy life and not worry that I feel inadequate. I'd like to not feel inadequate.

And so it is Monday. The positive side of me reminds me that I have lost 20 pounds this year and kept it off. I can feel myself climbing back up to that peak. The wind is blowing through my hair and a song plays on the radio
".......slow ride....take it easy...."
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    Hello Michelle,
    I hope you are having a great day! Thank you for your vote of confidence with me.
    My challenge is beer. I do well on eating like tonight a piece of steak and some salad. But, on the way home we stopped for some beers with friends.
    Otherwise I did great. So my new goal is to not drink until sat.
    But, I noticed no new little goalsfor you which you talked about on my site.
    Anything we can followup with eachother for the next week?
    I noticed you do well with excercise. So far I don't schedule time for me to do that.
    I am looking forward to hearing from you. You have two beautiful boys.
    Have a great night,
    4388 days ago
    Sounds like u r off and running. Don't give up. It is all a matter of establishing new habits. That is what I tell myself at least. So u have a diet coke once or twice a will not end the world ( I am addicted myself). just get as much ater in as u can too. Don't want to go to the park today? Play with those little guys out in the yard. Just remember, doing is the key something fun, and just keep moving. I don't make resolutions either, but losing weight is something I have to do. Might as well make it fun. SP is doing that for me. i know u can do it. hugs

    4838 days ago
    First of all, Congrats on losing the 20 pounds and keeping it off!! That is great!
    Second, I have days like that too. And when I do I don't beat myself up over it but I try harder the next day.
    There are alot of people on Sprk that will support you and help you through the bad days. You are not alone and you are worth it!!
    ((( HUG )))
    4840 days ago
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