How do I get off this crazy thing?

Monday, July 08, 2013

I've had so many changes in the past year yet so many things have remained the same. We added a new baby to our family this past April. I turned 41 about two weeks later. And I'm still struggling with my weight issues.

My highest weight the day I went into the hospital to have my baby boy was 340 lbs. When I stepped on the scale at the OB's office that morning I was completely and utterly mortified, not that the nurse saw what I weighed but that I weighed that much. I never in my life thought that I'd ever see a number like that on the scale. I know that most of it was water weight because by the time that my son was a month old I'd lost 42 pounds bringing me 2 pounds below where I'd started. But it's such a struggle. My body just doesn't feel right. I'm in near constant pain. My feet and knees kill me. I'm tired all of the time. I just don't feel like myself.

I'm ready to start back on the journey to me now. I owe it to myself. I owe it to my kids. I want to be healthy, not skinny. I want to be able to play with my kids and keep up with them. I want to look in the mirror and see the hot mama that I know I used to be and that my husband still claims to see.

Today I'll start my journey again.
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    Small steps forward add up! YOU CAN do this!!! You are stronger then you think!!!
    We are here for support!
    2668 days ago
    You Can Do It! Believe in Yourself, be kind and patient with yourself, as you would with a dear friend. As a 51 year old, 260 pound woman who just completed her first 5K, ( more walking than running) I'm sure you are capable of much more than you believe! Even two months ago I wouldn't have expected or believed I would do a 5K! Every little victory you have will breed more victories. Soon you will feel unstoppable!
    At my highest this past winter I was 293, so I am familiar with the achy joints, tiredness, and frustrations of normal day to day activities.
    But I took a small group class at the Y , a trainer with just three students, and he showed me just how much more I was capable of. More than that he Believed in me, even when I didn't . Now I'm beginning to believe I can do Anything I put my mind to!
    You Go For It Girl! You Got This! You Can Do It! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2670 days ago
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