i really deserve my own self pity!!! i am at a loss, only not weight loss!!!
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
I am feeling very very let down and discouraged this morning. I am hurting in my left hip so bad and I dont know what is causing it, but, I know I didnt feel like walking this morning.
Where that pain came from, out of no where, I have no idea.
Unless its from getting up and down so much....see, this job I took on, or whatever its called, is sitting with two ladies, one has downs syndrome and the other is bedridden.
The younger woman, with ds, is ok, she can fix her own meals mostly, she does need help reaching the overhead microwave...but for the most part, she is ok to fend for herself.
But the elderly lady, has to have everything brought to her, and she needs help getting up and down to the potty chair, but for now, she is still able to do that. I expect soon she wont be able to, as the nurse came yesterday and said shes only getting worse and her dementia is progressing.
So, its just alot of running up and down the hallway, most of the time, she doesnt really want anything.
She just calls out all day, bring me coffee, bring me a phone, come in here honey....when I go in to check on her, mostly shes half asleep and only calling out in her mind...but sometimes shes calling out cause she really needs help and I have to run and check on her.
So, that is the JOB, just alot of running and sitting down, standing up, sitting down....has to be where the hip pain came in, cause before, I was ok.
I dont honestly know how long this job is going to last for me...I am going to really try to tough it out.
I havent lost a pound this week, despite being a mexican jumping bean!!!!
And so, my body is rebelling against me...yesterday I was all happy that I was able to squeeze in a walk in the morning, and then after about 40 minutes, my foot really began to ache and pains radiating up my hip.
What can I do...I have decided to take my dumbbells and stretch bands to work with me and squeeze in some upper body workouts in between running...they have a gazelle and an eliptical machine...I really am going to need the upper body strength.
But my biggest disappointment came this morning when I stepped on the scale, to see that not an ounce was lost.
I have no idea what else I can do to tweek things.
I am walking as much as I can, which lately isnt alot, but when I do, I deal with the foot pain...I have cut bread out this whole week, and I have been going for lean proteins and yogurt all week...what is going on with me??
Why am I still stuck in this bog of zero weight loss?????
someone help me???
I even cut my calories again on my nutrition page to see if that helps me stay in line, but I am eating so little now I dont know what else to cut out.
I sit here preplexed about the whole thing, because I was losing weight like crazy before this stupid foot decided to take a break, literally a break!!!
Will I ever lose this 84 pounds I want to lose??? will I ever lose the 14 lbs I need to lose to get back to where I was...will I ever even lose one more pound???