Saturday, August 10, 2013

Although I am actively pursuing 2nd opinions, the carcinosarcoma has come back for the 3rd time. I have a tumor growing quickly in my liver and my oncologist says it is inoperable. If my insurance ever approves, I am going to have "cyber knife" radiation treatments to shrink/destroy the tumor. But if they drag their feet much longer, it wont be necessary 'cause the tumor will kill me real soon. I have talked to the tumor and explained that if I die, it dies, but it doesn't seem to care. I have yelled and cried and screamed and pleaded to God, but I guess His answer is no. I am "only" 57 and we are raising 2 of our grandchildren (both 9, and the boy is severely developmentally delayed). I am not afraid of dying at all (I will be with Jesus!) but I really can't leave my family right now. It is so unfair to them. Yeah, I know, life isn't fair.
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  • HINK2013
    emoticon sending a hug and praying for a miracle.... "be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

    That quote is something that sits on my desk at work and I read it a lot, when I'm having a hard time.

    2606 days ago
    I have recovered from cancer using alternative methods... yes it is possible, and better chances than chemo and radiation.... where to start... there is not one answer on how to cure cancer lots of ways and use them all... the biggest cruciferous vegetables and eating greens.... a vegtable diet keeps your body alkaline and tumors cannot grow in alkaline....Meat and dairy and bread.. carbohydrates make your body acid and feed the tumors..

    Gloucose feeds the the higher the carbs the more the tumor grows... I turned my body into a fat burner and killed the cancer..

    Also litmus paper will help tell if your body is acid or alkaline.... green tea... lots of it..resveratol... essaic.... do the research..

    Cancer is a big business..... they don't want you cured... think ab out it

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    2608 days ago
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