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Coming Back

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Hi, my name is Christine and I'm just coming back.

I can giggle at that, but truly what I'm feeling is relief.

I haven't been participating or using the tools from SP ... completely stopped communicating with my support network here. I had faced myself with a challenge, which I accomplished with great determination ... and then, that was it ... I stopped participating. My challenge was done.

Similarly, it's like doing 90 meetings in 90 days, or celebrating one year sober, and then what?

This isn't a challenge. It's life. And I'm seeing it, I'm getting it ... Life is a 'We' program ... not meant to be done, lived or figured out alone. Eating and living healthy is not something to "accomplish" ... it's a way of living.

Oh.

That said, as hard as it is to admit to myself and to others, I need help with this. I give up trying to do this alone, on my own. It.NEVER.Works (for long) when I do it on my own.

My life is unmanageable, my eating is out of control and it is affecting myself and many others. As I type this, my daughter is out running with her aunt and her cousin, and I skipped out with the excuse that "I have to work," when truthfully I was just hating myself and feeling so unfit.

Mmmmph.

God, help me.

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  • HAPPY_HEART_JEN
    Welcome back! I am also just jumping back into spark after a long hiatus. On a side note I also enjoy taking distorted pictures of myself. Particularly when friends leave their phones unattended. emoticon
    2499 days ago
  • TRIPLEGODDESS
    Welcome back! My story is similar to yours. Once i jumped back in I have lost 4 pounds just this month alone. Remember that we are here for you if you need us. Good luck!
    2501 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7778582
    Welcome back! I look forward to hearing more from you on here! Good luck, I'm here for you!
    2502 days ago
  • POLSKARENIA
    You're right. Alone doesn't work for long!
    2503 days ago
  • NYDAIRYFARMWIFE
    Welcome back!
    2503 days ago
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    Welcome Back emoticon
    2503 days ago
  • TWEETYKC00
    I an so glad you are back! That is why we are here, to be there for each other. Now let's see if we can get you up and moving in the right direction!
    2503 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14143586
    Christine, you're so right about how doing it alone just doesn't work. I'm glad you're back. I don't know where you are with your weight, but I know that I am thoroughly pleased and excited about those who reach their goal and stick around on the message boards to cheer us on.

    I have a lot to lose, but I have no plans to leave Spark. What a difference it's already made for me.

    KD
    2503 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Remeber that there is a BIG difference between making a DECISION and making a COMMITMENT! Welcome Back! God Bless YOU! Vic.
    2503 days ago
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