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tug-of-war with my willpower

Friday, August 30, 2013

i surrender my will. then i take it back.

hahaaaa. it's so not funny.

i was here on the 27th. on the 28th, i ate chocolate cake, whipped cream, ice cream and three slices of pizza ... and drank a can of Coke. clearly rebelling.

it wasn't even a party; just food and dessert out for dinner. none of which i had to eat. none of which was specifically handed to me. all choices i made; the decision all my own to eat it all.

i thought, sort of, ... well maybe this is my "one last big binge" before i make the change. oh god, it all sounds so familiar.

i'm starting to get a little nervous though. because i think, logically, i understand that my way of eating has to change. but emotionally, i'm thinking it's not that serious. i read in today's Hazeldon meditation that overeating is a progressive disease too - is this right? so, in other words, all of my "not yets" and "nevers" can and will happen if i don't change now?

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  • no profile photo CD7778582
    You can see where your areas of weakness are, which means that you can formulate a plan for overcoming them. You ate some not-so healthy things. Today is a new day, you can make the choice to eat better. If you eat something not exactly fantastic, then the next meal is yet another choice. One step at a time. You can do this!
    2704 days ago
    2 out of 3 is progress. These things often take time and sometimes we need to have those 'food breaks'. As long as we get back on the wagon after it's still progress!
    2704 days ago
    Thanks, Tweety ... Thankfully, we do have fruits and veggies in the house right now. I had a banana (with my breakfast, not for breakfast, LOL). And I put in 30 minutes of light garage cleaning with my partner.

    I will put in a good walk with my dog later today.

    Thanks again for your support and suggestions!
    2705 days ago
    Ok, time to sweat that sugar and grease binge out of your system and get some fruits and veggies in the house for after your walks!
    2705 days ago
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