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tug-of-war with my willpower

Friday, August 30, 2013

i surrender my will. then i take it back.

hahaaaa. it's so not funny.

i was here on the 27th. on the 28th, i ate chocolate cake, whipped cream, ice cream and three slices of pizza ... and drank a can of Coke. clearly rebelling.

it wasn't even a party; just food and dessert out for dinner. none of which i had to eat. none of which was specifically handed to me. all choices i made; the decision all my own to eat it all.

i thought, sort of, ... well maybe this is my "one last big binge" before i make the change. oh god, it all sounds so familiar.

i'm starting to get a little nervous though. because i think, logically, i understand that my way of eating has to change. but emotionally, i'm thinking it's not that serious. i read in today's Hazeldon meditation that overeating is a progressive disease too - is this right? so, in other words, all of my "not yets" and "nevers" can and will happen if i don't change now?

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  • no profile photo CD7778582
    You can see where your areas of weakness are, which means that you can formulate a plan for overcoming them. You ate some not-so healthy things. Today is a new day, you can make the choice to eat better. If you eat something not exactly fantastic, then the next meal is yet another choice. One step at a time. You can do this!
    2507 days ago
  • POLSKARENIA
    2 out of 3 is progress. These things often take time and sometimes we need to have those 'food breaks'. As long as we get back on the wagon after it's still progress!
    2507 days ago
  • JERSEYTAURUS
    Thanks, Tweety ... Thankfully, we do have fruits and veggies in the house right now. I had a banana (with my breakfast, not for breakfast, LOL). And I put in 30 minutes of light garage cleaning with my partner.

    I will put in a good walk with my dog later today.

    Thanks again for your support and suggestions!
    2507 days ago
  • TWEETYKC00
    Ok, time to sweat that sugar and grease binge out of your system and get some fruits and veggies in the house for after your walks!
    2507 days ago
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