My battle with the scale
Friday, September 27, 2013
My name is Carling, and I'm a chronic weigher. Seriously, this is a sickness! At least I think so. My fitness and new lifestyle has become a complete obsession for me. Others must get sick of hearing it, (my husband especially) but I can't help myself! One of the things that controls my life the most is my obsession with the scale.
I know I have done really well so far in such a short period of time, but I still care way too much about what the scale says at all times of the day (and night!) I honestly weigh myself between 10 and 12 times a day. Doing this for so long, I typically know what my "normals" are throughout the day. I obviously know that I weigh more at night and more when I drink a crap ton of water (at first), but I still have to see the number. I don't let the scale dictate my self worth or how I feel about my journey or myself, but it does get frustrating at times. I have let it keep me from eating things I'm craving, which I guess is a good thing. I also help it determine how much I need to work out.
I have tried putting the scale away so I don't see it, but it is HARD! I've never done crack, but I feel like this is what a crack addict would feel like if they didn't have any. Seriously though, I feel like I traded my addiction to food with my addiction to the scale. I guess that's how I justify continuing doing the excessive weighing all of these months. I have a rule that I never track unless I lose, because if I tracked at every weigh-in, I might just lose my mind. I know I'm still eating healthy and within my limits and working out regularly, but when it comes to waiting for my eyes to clear up in the middle of the night so I can read the number of the scale after I get up to use the restroom, I know this is not normal!!! Does anyone else have this obsession? If so, do you think it helps or hinders you? I'm to the point where I feel it does both :-/