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Just when I thought I had completely surrendered ...

Wednesday, October 02, 2013

No, I guess I really haven't. But I do feel like I'm on my way, moving in the right direction. I haven't lost any weight since I was last here. And my eating has been so completely out of control. But I am watching the pattern, starting to understand why and when and how I eat.

I believe I still have more to learn, a lot. I know it's about being fit (not thin), nourishing my body with the proper foods ... eat to survive, not survive to eat.

I know it all, but here I am, still holding on to my will. Sort of in shock, a little, ... this has been my way of eating my entire life ... eat whatever and whenever I want. Sometimes exercise. Sometimes eat well. Sometimes train for and complete a marathon. But mostly, reward and comfort myself with food.

I want to surrender completely. I'm going to start thinking in terms of "just for today" or "one hour/minute/meal at a time". Because looking past today is too overwhelming, feels so ridiculously overwhelming, like a joke.

Just for today. I will eat well.

Please add me as a friend and let's support each other. I need to make friendships, not just connections. I need to know that I am not alone, that I have others supporting me, who understand exactly what I'm going through. I need to get out of my own head and to be able to help others in return.

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    One day at a time sounds like the perfect plan to me :) You are definitely not alone at all. Feel free to lean on us!
    2671 days ago
    I like the idea of the note card reminder and will be doing something similar for myself tonight. Your are definitely not alone at all. I often feel very set in my ways of interacting with food. Food and feelings. Feel something eat something. The hard part is building new habits and beliefs and I've been quick to give up in the past. I can see the progress I've made over the past 5 years or so, but its been slow going. Keep your head up and pushing forward!
    2671 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7778582
    You are NOT alone. I understand exactly what you are saying. One day at a time is all that we can do, and one meal at a time is sometimes what is in our best interest. I am here for you. We CAN do this!
    2671 days ago
    Me too. So busy at work, that one hour at a time is about all I have time for... I'm with you!
    2671 days ago
  • no profile photo KDMAMA412
    This is a great idea. One day at a time! I'm in the same boat. Trying new things, being fit not just thin. Thanks for the post!
    2672 days ago
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