One More Time

I can't believe it's been over a year and I'm still as heavy as ever. Will I ever learn? If being thin was easy - everyone would be thin. I just can't seem to focus on the goal. I need some motivation and drive, not to mention will power. I hope try number 4,000 will be the one.

My son tells me I set my goals too high. He says I should break my weight loss down into pieces so I don't have so much to lose and can achieve it and feel good. Let's try that. I hope to lose 20 pounds by the end of the year. Not as much as I ideally would like, but I think it is a goal that is achievable.

My mind is powerful. I find that I have very few mirrors in my house. The reason, in my mind I don't look "that" bad. Only when I show up in pictures, or catch a glimpse in the mirror, I am surprised and appalled at what I see. My reaction is - "I can't look like that", but I do and it's time to change. I want to be able to dress in cute jeans, a sweater, scarf and boots and look good, not frumpy. I want to be able to bend over and tie my shoes without it becoming a workout. I want to be able to wear sleeveless shirts in public. With all that I want, I have to make changes. I have to want this for me. Wish me luck!