There's Better Things on the Horizon (Hopefully)
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
2013 has been a very stressful year. It started off with the threat of my husband losing his job in a career that doesn't transition well to any other career field. That threat still exists multiplied by a factor of 5. It's a frightening and powerless situation to be in. We are doing what we can right now. He's going back to school and I'm pondering a master's degree to make up for the loss of income when he changes career fields.
Excersize has been hit and miss. My daily nutrition choices are derailed nearly every evening and weekend when I tend to binge on whatever is easiest to grab. Amazingly, I stepped on the scale this morning to find that I have gained 10 pounds from goal weight achieved July 2012. (golf clap)
My obstacles are depression and an inability to overcome grief associated with not getting things that were promised and deserved. My own expectations are killing me. Slowly it seems, I'm changing my mind on the situations that are out of my control. I have to do this to preserve my sanity. Life can't be this cruel without leaving a door or a window open. I have to believe that there are better adventures on the horizon. That horizon may be 3 years down the road... and, believe me, that road is a rocky, perilous back road, unmaintained.
I continue to pray for those who are benefitting from my families' loss. Hatred in my heart is painful and it keeps me from being the person that I'm most comfortable being: kind, compassionate and grateful.