What to do when you hit rock bottom?
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
I woke up feeling okay this morning. I mean I knew I still was jobless (but hey I'm still in the hunt). I knew I was still overweight (haven't dropped a pound in nearly a week and a half) but I did get that nifty new Body Fat measuring tool (can anyone say early Christmas gift that was nice enough to tell me I was 38.9% Bodyfat) in the mail...so at least I have a new number to try to lower and a new goal to focus on...so I was still okay.
But then my children asked me for lunch money and I literally had to look between seat cushions, raid the piggy banks and crawl around in my car to come up with $4.20. It wasn't a good feeling. I thought it's okay...I still have money in the bank...or at least I thought I did til I checked my balance. Then of course I check my emails and my job sites to see if someone has deemed me worthy to come in for an interview...instead I met rejection after rejection after rejection. From the outside looking in, it would appear I hit rock bottom...but in truth I am still okay. I have my family, I have my health, there is food in my fridge and a roof over our heads. So what if our Christmas tree isn't overflowing with presents this year, so what if my husband and I are seeking counseling to repair our marriage, so what if I can't find a job yet....at the end of the day as long as I remember to do this
and have faith that it works I am okay. When I hit rock bottom I pray, when I hit rock bottom I remind myself that somewhere out there is someone who has it worse, when I hit rock bottom I moan for 5 minutes and rejoice for 20. There is something better on the horizon. As long as I believe this and hold on I will be okay.