The first time in my lifetime....
Monday, December 23, 2013
I did not make Christmas cookies! OMG, I can not believe it! I planned to make Christmas cookies with my daughter, just one batch, but canceled the baking plans. No I did not do this because I was sick, I did it for me! I knew once I made the cookies I would want to eat them. Don't get me wrong, I know when I go to my cousin's for Christmas dinner there will be Christmas cookies...but I decided that I did not want them in my house this year.
This is overwhelming for me. I come from a family of bakers. My grandfather had a bakery and one of my childhood memories that I hold dear is baking and decorating Christmas cookies with my loved ones. It has been a tradition is my family since I can remember, one I carried on to my children. We would start the holiday off every year with a song that I loved that my mother will put on as our first song of the holiday. The song is Christmas Cookies and Holiday Hearts (http://www.youtube.com/watch?
v=PmI13l5eICQ) by Teresa Brewer...I put the link for those that want to enjoy it! In the past I would make two batches of cookies every day after Thanksgiving till the 23 and give huge trays of cookies for Christmas gifts.
I realize that it is only one Christmas without my tradition. I know I will continue my tradition in the future but at this time in my life I need to learn to make better choices and those choice do not involve extra cookie in my house! I think today I have to put myself first as a priority, knowing that itself is a gift to myself and my family. I think once I get myself back to being healthier and making good choice for myself on a daily basis I will be in better control of those choices and then I will attempt to continue my tradition! For now, it has to be all about ME!!