Holiday or no ...season of whatever ...fact is this getting healthy ..getting in shape..eating right..
man this has got to be an everyday thing!!
Was out & about today..had to walk in some cold & strong winds. Found that ..I got out of breathe more easily than I used to. Felt the effort more than I used to..because??? I have not been exercising like I used to!! ya think??
yep thas it. I have admittedly slacked off..the mean to is there...the DO IT has been lacking.
& today the results showed their lil ugly selves!!
So..what ya gonna do lady?? sit around & pout or get back on that horse & ride??
After all this craziness I know I have been doing a lot of "emotional" eating..or stress eating.
plus i just kinda gave up on fixing MY meals..I fixed the fried crap & ate it..just too tired mentally to fight the fight. Or so I thought...today was a slap in the face reminder!!OH yeah!
I could whine & go on..my knee hurts-it is bruised. Then just go on from there..or I can just pick me up ..shake me real good..set me down & tell me to straighten the h#ll up!
I think I will go for that last option..I really really do not like the idea of "giving up"..it just doesn't sit well with me.
As a few know I ducked & ran earlier this Fall..it cost me dearly in terms of ME..I deserted my team..I ran from issues here in my life & tried to just duck the whole scene. Ya know what..
you take it with you. The issues...are inside you ..your head your heart your mind. I can know in my front brain that I cannot run from them..but that old back brain the "fight or flight" brain.
It says Go ...Go..Go now while you can..& it is wrong.
I have lost ground as far as fitness..I have gained weight & am beyond displeased about that.
but if you stuff ..stuff in your mouth then sit around..hmmm stuff turns to rolls around your middle or rump which ever!
So ..flogging over..I am I realize only human . Now to turn this boat around & start paddling in the right direction....
For now ..it is time to tuck in & get some rest. In the AM I will decide what I will do..
Sleepy now..feel better for "venting". Wanna post onna them pics where two folks are in the britches I wear now. I hate to think they are that big..but they might be! I realized today that part of my problem is I never had an image of me as BIG..or FAT. I said it..but I did not truely have that image in my head. Somehow today it got planted..took root & became a reality.
Now having looked in the mirror of self...Wow..not asking why or how I let myself get this way.
Asking ...how long are you going to put up with this ??? & if not going to do anything about it..then quit fussing & just sit there in that chair & spread out like a marshmellow.
There ya go...thas how it has to be..