My lesson of the year: NEVER give a food addict a week off.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

I just shared this with a SP friend after she successfully maintained through Christmas. I am proud of those who made it!!!! Yay! I maintained through Christmas last year too. BUT this year, I TESTED myself---this is not wise!!!!
I failed the test!
I am not yet to a place (and probably never will be) where I can allow myself to let go---I can't stop easily. Sometimes I eat myself into a stupor almost.
It has taken me 3 days to get things back in control. I realize that I do not have normal signals in my brain that say stop, you've had enough. I have to consciously be aware of what is going in my mouth. That is just the way it is!

Last Saturday I gave myself permission to bake (my husband loves me to bake cookies and treats) and eat a 'few' cookies, then over the course of the past week I added a few cups of sangria, a little bit of dressing, noodles, a piece of banana bread, candy, more cookies, ham, more sangria, more banana bread, more candy, more cookies, more ham, rolls . . . and today, I am TEN pounds UP! Oh, My, My, My!!!!! (Surely, some of it is water . . .) -- ONE WEEK!?

Today (and yesterday and the day before) I am feeling weighed down, sluggish and a mess! BUT, the good news is I am back on track! The trigger food events are done and the food is gone! I'm back to a good and healthy eating regime! Thank goodness! A couple days ago I was gripped with a very real fear of a total loss of control! I never want to go through the extreme weight gain/loss experience again and this experience was an eye opener. (Not that I was unaware, but thought I'd come along well enough to 'let go' for the holiday's--after all it's just a week and I should be able to maintain SOME restraint . . . ha!)

My lesson of the year: NEVER give a food addict a week off.
(. . . . a meal now and then, but not a week.)
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    1525 days ago
    I am reading this a couple years after you posted but I'm glad you did write it up.
    Looking at your pictures it looks like you have learned the things that you needed to and you did an awesome job. You look really good and did an amazing job. Your post helps me because I have struggled and lost and gained more. But reading posts from other people that have struggled is very useful and is giving me hope to not give up. Everyone struggles with it, but you overcame and succeeded. Good job!
    Thank you for sharing!
    2027 days ago
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  • no profile photo CD10895053
    Wow, I just had to comment on this! Is that ever me! I could've been the one writing it. Over the last couple of years, I've given myself an inch and I've taken a mile and I'm 30# up! I know that there are other issues in there, but the main thing is that I didn't pay at much attn., and a little bit here and a little bit there and emoticon here I am! Thanks for the good reminder that we have to be on guard all the time!!
    2185 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    We are never, ever is the way we live our life if we want to maintain our present weight. I never, ever want to go back to being heavy again so I know what I have to do.
    2185 days ago
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    I love your statement about never giving a food addict a week off--I am realizing that I can't take any time off at this point. emoticon
    2185 days ago
    You are, sadly, SO right. I also have learned the hard way.
    2486 days ago
    I am with you on that!!
    2486 days ago
  • no profile photo CD14458773
    Thank you, thank you. Sounds all too familiar. It can happen if we lose our focus. Like driving a car...ya gotta KEEP it between the lines!

    2551 days ago
    Oh yes... I can easily gain weight RAPIDLY!!! I've been known to gain 10 lbs in just one day!
    2552 days ago
    Singing my song too, honey.

    But what's done is done - and all that matters now is what you do now. Which is also my song. emoticon
    2613 days ago
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  • MJ7DM33
    2617 days ago
    Oh gosh yes, the slippery slope is really hard to get off, once you go there...

    I'm experiencing something similar, myself.


    I am reminded of the Rules For Humans, Rule 4: A lesson is repeated until learned


    2617 days ago
    I had the same issue! lots of emotional eating this week, and today I am a complete monster! then I realized the amount of carbs I had today is probably 3 times (at least) less than I had over the past week.!
    It is time to get back to the basics!
    2617 days ago
    taken as a lesson learned and move on. At least you caught it after a week and not a month. Its never easy, there is always a lesson to leran.
    2617 days ago
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    I did the same thing..Oprah says "when you know better, You do better". She has not met me.
    2617 days ago
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    You are absolutely right! I learned it this year the hard way, too. I gave myself the week off and then started baking. BIG MISTAKE! Of course, I brought all the cookies to our Christmas Eve gathering, where nobody ate much, so I had to bring them home. I have been eating cookies for breakfast, lunch, and dinner! They are not even good cookies, but I can't stop eating them. I am up two pounds, which is okay as long as I can get back on track, but once you go off it is so hard to get back on. Today I froze what is left of the cookies for my son to take back to Minnesota with home. Hopefully, if they are out of sight I won't stuff my face with them. Anyway, I just want you to know that you are not alone in not being strong enough. There are plenty of us out here! Together we are stronger, though, and together we can do it. Loved your blog!

    2617 days ago
    I hear ya. I felt quite ill when I went back to work the day after Christmas. It was a whirlwind two weeks between work and family functions!

    The important thing is your back to your normal mindset and routine. It's all good now!

    Look out 2014, here we come!

    2617 days ago
    I know just what you're saying. My brain signals have not functioned right since Jr. High. I have to keep things out of the house or I'll succumb when my resistance is low. So very frustrating!!! I'm working off 2 up pounds now.

    Hang in there. Stopping the regression now is much less painful than letting it continue!
    2617 days ago
    There is so much sodium in all that holiday food that the scale can't help but go up. A week to ten days of healthy eating with adequate water intake should erase all the indulgence. Live and learn. I should only have treats on the basic holidays, but I didn't do well with that either. Maybe next Christmas aim for cooking a healthy holiday meal. It's a thought. Happy New Year!
    2617 days ago
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