Another very quiet day at my house and honestly I am thankful. I am enjoying this pace so much and am hesitant to let it go, but know more of my time will disappear because homeschool co-op starts up on Monday and church activities will resume. Co-op is the big one and I have been looking through my responsibilities as Director and am trying to identify some tasks that need to be off-loaded for two reasons. First, because it is just too much for one person to do all the time and second, because if we do end up moving to Missouri I only have one more year that I can direct this and need to make the task easy to break into pieces or completely smaller for whomever steps into the job.
School went easily today and the kids actually wanted to start our next unit study on Missouri so we got their lapbooks ready to go and did the first couple of introductory activities. And huge praise...Isaac remembered how to round numbers to the nearest 100 today! Whoo Hoo!
After lunch I made the decision to fire up the Wii and get my fitness time done before heading to the bank and post office. Good decision Janet! Once home I updated receipts and then decided to work on the BL weigh-in and do some sparking since I won't be able to tonight as Jenn will be over for supper and games.
Tomorrow has become more open as playgroup was cancelled due to illness. Would have been fun, but not completely disappointed either. I don't even have to go anywhere in the morning as Bountiful Basket is still on break (boo) and groceries are purchased. My plan is to ride on the Recumbent Bike for 30 minutes while the family is gone in the morning and do laundry. Big plans, huh?
Wii Fit: I held firm today and made sure I got in at least 30 minutes on the Wii Fit so my exercise schedule is back on track! I even made some high scores today in the Yoga section!
BL Challenge - Team Emerald: Weigh-in is done for our third week and we squeaked by with a 1.7 lb. overall loss. It was definitely up and down! Will be interesting to see where we place with the other twelve teams! Go team Emerald! You're awesome!
5% Challenge - Team Daisy: Once again I forgot to put the pre-challenge activities down in my blog so playing catch-up tonight.
#7: Triggers (List all our trigger foods, etc.)
For me emotional stress definitely plays a huge factor and I tend to want salty things. There are also times when there are some of my favorite foods nearby (even made by me for the rest of the family) that are tough to resist, but so far I'm doing pretty good about that. One big one that has popped up is homemade chocolate chip or butterscotch cookies. Oh, my! Must hide those!
#8: Strategize (List my reasons/excuses on why my diet and exercise plans have not been well executed in the past. Learn from these past behaviors.)
I would say the top three are laziness, frustration when nothing seems to be happening, and time.
I have made huge strides in all of those areas this past year, but especially with exercise there is still room for improvement.
"Un-mixing Our Motives" by Amy Carroll
"Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus." Philippians 2:5 (NIV 1984)
I'll never forget when mixed motives almost killed my true calling. Soon after accepting a leadership position in the women's ministry of my church, a friend on the team came up to me. "Oh! We forgot to tell you," she said with a grin. "You're in charge of the annual women's conference."
Despite the surprise, I loved every minute of organizing the event. But as I interacted with our guest speaker, envy began to wind itself around my heart. If it could have spoken aloud, it would have said, "I want THAT!"
I wanted her platform.
I wanted her eloquence.
I wanted her audience.
I wanted her cute outfit.
Fortunately, I recognized these "wants" as signs of covetousness rather than signs of my calling. I knew God had called me to be the women's ministry director during that season—not to speak. And each time I desired what that speaker had, it took my focus off what God had for me.
So I asked God to kill the weed of envy that was choking the life from my calling to lead women. I asked Him to purify my motives and steer my heart to the women He had called me to serve.
It's so easy for wrong motives to creep in to our hearts. You might not want to be a speaker, but maybe you're the mom who dresses her children to impress others. Or maybe you're the employee who takes charge of the room to show your boss your readiness for the next step up.
There's nothing wrong with cute children or promotions, but so many times our motives trip us up. Instead of being pure, our motives get mixed with other things that sully the outcome—emotionalism, pride, and strong personal preferences are just a few.
Several years after my prayer to remove my "speaker envy," God started whispering to me about speaking as I prayed and read the Word. My first reaction was to think, "There's that old, nasty envy again. God, purify my heart!"
But this time was different. As I unpacked my motives, I realized God had really changed my heart. He'd refined my motives to just one, and that was to obey Him.
Philippians 2:5 states our ideal position: "Your attitude should be the same as Christ Jesus" (NIV 1984). Our one motive should be to follow Him and become more like Him. That's the motive that should supersede and reign over any others. How do we practically live that out?
I think the clue is in the following verses. "Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness" (Philippians 2:6-7, NIV 1984).
Our focus has to be on becoming nothing. Nothing is not our status or worth. We are always holy and dearly loved children of the King.
Nothing is to be our chosen position as a servant.
How does this look in everyday life? Jesus is our perfect example. He is everything: the Lord of lords and the King of kings. He is so incredibly powerful and important that Colossians 1:16 says "all things were created by him and for him" (NIV 1984). Despite His exalted position, Jesus showed the purity of His motives toward us by giving up all He had.
As I've thought about how to imitate Jesus in my motives, I ask myself two questions when making choices:
• Does this put me or others first?
• Is this a choice to be more or to be nothing?
These two questions expose any twisted motives and bring me back to my chosen position of nothing. Day by day, my motives are refined. It's a painful process sometimes, but it's a good process that ultimately produces pure motives with divine outcomes.
Lord God, You are the only One with uncontaminated motives. I confess mine are often mixed with pride, emotion, or personal opinion. Please purify my heart. Forgive me, un-mix my motives, and help me move forward with a pure heart. Amen.