January 9, 2014
Thursday, January 09, 2014
Love the above quote...and that is what 2014 will be for me...doing those things I have always wanted to do...living my life. I have utilized food as something to numb myself with since I was in my late teens. I have a great amount of OA support located all around me and am committing to going to a meeting today. I had to be willing to let things fall by the wayside in order to be ready to get back to the place that helped me 18 years ago. Be gentle with yourself was one of the main things I am reminded of from that time. My food plan then was three meals a day and not counting calories and fat grams because I would become totally obsessed and into a diet mentality utilizing those tools.
This year I am going to learn how it feels to be hungry and waiting on that feeling before I eat...and then when I do choose to nourish my body with food...I will eat until I am satisfied and not sick and stuffed. I am going to learn how to be honest with myself...
I want to be healthy physically, spiritually, and emotionally and there are so many roads available to me to choose from. I can actually have a life again. It has been three months since I let go of alcohol...and that was a major stumbling block for myself. I don't need it anymore which is awesome.
I think letting go of that has allowed me to come to this place where I am now truly ready to deal with my food thing. I am ready. Blessings