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i would go ice skating if i knew how

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Last night, just after dark, which was actually only around 6pm, I took puppy out to TRY to go, she on the other hand prefers to pretend shes a squirrel and gather walnuts off the ground.
Being that there was already several inches of snow on the ground, her smelling sense was off and all she wanted to do was run and play in the snow.
It was after about 5 minutes of being out in the dark snow that I realized, there was a mini-van sitting on the bank by the highway, it was somewhat lodged between the bank off the highway and a tree inside the yard.
I walked down to it and felt the hood to see if it was still warm, wondering how long this had happened and why I had heard nothing.
I tapped on the window and looked inside, just to make sure no one was inside, cold or injured.
I was afraid to try the handle on the door, the way the van was just somewhat hovering over a ditch.
No one was inside and the van remains there this morning.
The roads got really bad here last night. Yet people were still out traveling.
What is it about cold and icy roads and snow that makes us want to roam?
Where we live is in the hills, all around us, are hills and roads and trails.
All hours of the night, atv's ran the roads coming and going.
Other than taking the puppy out, I opted to stay inside and well, EAT.
I got on a late night snack binge.
I dont know why, or what force was behind it.
But I snacked, on a beef sausage stick and 4 mini white donuts and crackers.
Now this morning, I am back on track, lol. lol lol.
I read somewhere on here, or maybe it was a comment to me, that each day is new, whatever we do the day before is no reflection of the new day.
Put the past behind you and move on, get back on track each day????
Is this what I am to understand???
Well, I am not going to follow that advice anymore because here is what happens, I allow myself to snack and eat junk and not exercise, etc. Then I tell myself its ok, you messed up yesterday but today is all new.
Well if I continue to follow that motto, I will mess up every day.
I dont know if its the cold weather, staying inside, what is going on with me.
As I blogged recently, going to bed at 6 pm seems to be my only real defense against eating late in the evening.
Because I do so well in the day.
I need a new motto and a new willpower and some appetite and self control.
and I need the snow and ice to melt and the sun to come back and I need to walk.
And I need to stop being so excuse making and just get off my butt and do what needs to be done.
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    emoticon yourself away from the food. It's really the only thing you can do.
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