Trying not to gag while drinking a glass of the " Healthy Stuff"
Monday, January 27, 2014
Its been one week since I started my 100 day juice reboot and have lost 13.1 pounds. While I am happy with the loss this week, I'm even more happy with what I have learned.
If you have never done a juice fast before, here is a small glimpse at what happens. You go from eating to not eating but drinking your calories. All of which comes from freshly juiced fruits and vegetables, mostly vegetables. You will convince yourself that you are taking the right steps, that wont taste as bad as it looks, while trying not to gag as you drink a glass of the "healthy stuff". After one week, I'm still getting use to the taste. However, most times I try to drink it down as fast as I can as my husband watches me and laughs. I'm Still waiting for the moment I can say I actually like it.
Next, you go through a detox period( different for everyone) and you can have any symptoms raging from stomach pains, headaches, joint pain, moodiness, hunger(obviously), noise and light sensitivity and a number of others. Enough pain to make anyone quit. Now if you can make it though these days than I would say you are good to go, if you can get past the mental stage.
Where am I? The mental stage. I have never noticed how much I eat out of boredom or because my husband is eating. This seems a little absurd when I think about it. Really, I eat anytime my husband eats? When did that happen? I thought about this for a little while and realized that one of the things that actually triggered this was his constant snacking. NOW, let me be clear, I am not blaming my husband for me eating or my weight. I feel that I snack a lot more because it is a learned behavior I picked up from my husband. Weekends use to be our stay up late and snack nights. We'd watch movies or play games and we would have several snack into the wee hours.
This was never as clearer until this week. My husband popped popcorn late Friday night. As I had a hand full of popcorn headed towards my mouth I looked at my husband who had this shocked and slightly horrified look on his face, asking " what are you doing?". What!? How did I forget for that moment that I wasn't eating and only juicing? This is when I realized eating had become a habit for me.
This would not be the only time that I had dealt with my struggle I was really emotion on day 3 and 4. I kept telling my husband I'm hungry and whining like a little baby. Within the same sentence of complaining that I'm hungry, I would also say " I'm not, just want to eat". That is a horrible place to be. Knowing you're not hungry but still wanting to eat. It's a horrible feeling and I still deal with it. I'm not really hungry but I think its more of me missing eating. That I would like to eat something because I am jealous of the meal my husband is having or because something smells good. Speaking of smells, they are not my friend. I think smelling food cooking actually made it worse. I'm learning to walk away and find something to occupy my mind for a while, seems to help.
Until this week, I never realized how much I was putting food into my body and not even paying attention. All I do now is focus on what goes into my body. A complete change. It is still hard but I know I will learn so much about myself and what changes I need to make. From here I will take what I have learned and continue on my journey to 100 days.
93 days to go!
Here's to a bright and healthy future :)