Cake, and Chinese Food, and PTSD. Oh my!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Tomorrow and Thursday are going to be fairly difficult for me. Tomorrow, I am going to visit my mom, dad and my best friend, Chelse (back home, 2hrs from me now). Thursday is my dad and Chelse's birthday. Tomorrow, I will be at my moms, having a little party for Chelse, which will include cake, ahh! Although, we will be having a healthy dinner, so I guess a little cake won't be the end of the world.
Then on Thursday, I am taking my dad out to lunch. Knowing him, he will probably want to go to Tiki Port, which is the BEST Chinese food! I always eat so much when I go there. And it's been over a year since I've been there, so I am totally craving it. I won't give up eating my favorites. I will just have to eat less than I usually do. I am just going to do the best I can.
Also, I have like 4 loads of laundry to do, since I've been lazy and slacking. The washer and dryer are in the basement, and I have to go outside to get down there. It's so cold AND I have to go up and down two flights of stairs each time I go down there. My knee and ankle have been killing me lately, worse than they have in a while, so I have been putting it off.
And I have to finish the painting I started as a present for my dad. I have so much to do today, and I just feel like garbage.
Oh and, I am going to be driving two hours on the highway for the first time since my accident. I get super nervous and shaky, and sometimes end up crying while I'm driving or even in a car with someone else. I am so paranoid and convinced that I am going to get in another accident. I can't help it, I just get scared. My therapist says I have PTSD from the accident. I have been putting off driving whenever I can. I am so f-ing scared!! It also doesn't help that it's supposed to snow, and my Explorer is broken, so I am borrowing my mother-in-law's tiny Pontiac something. I feel way better in bigger cars. I wish they would let me borrow their big Jeep (Compass or Commander or something) with 4WD. But that is their baby. They can't be without it for two days. Anyways, hopefully I will be ok. Ugh!