Where are you Motivation!?
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
The second week of January my and my boyfriend were reeling from a constant stream of over indulging in food and drink, with the holiday, vacation, and the fact that we're in a new and very happy relationship. We decided to get back to routine with cooking meals at home weekly and working out again.
I'm 'running' with my dog 3 times a week, and try to keep only healthy options in the fridge and pantry. I'm not eating out or grabbing coffee everyday but we do have a cheat meal on the weekends. We are trying to limit ourselves to 1 bottle of wine a week. Everyday I'm trying to drink more water. Everything has been going to plan these past 3 weeks and it's been fun cooking with him and planning meals together. It's also A LOT more work. He helps me cook and grocery shop but I'm usually the meal planner, which can be challenging. Also, it feels like the dirty dishes are never ending with eating every meal at home. Packing my lunch for work everyday can be a struggle as well, and I'm in a new office that doesn't have a fridge yet, so that's been annoying.
Sounds like the changes have been pretty positive, right? EXCEPT, I haven't lost an OUNCE yet, and that's really frustrating.
When I was training to run my first 5k in October I was super motivated to crush my workouts. Now? I'm mainly only going out to make my dog and boyfriend happy. I do try to get my heart rate up, and I know it's better than sitting in front of the computer for another 30 minutes but I'm just not trying very hard. I have no motivation to get back to the running fitness level I was at. It's a struggle everyday I run to get dressed and head out.
As the diet goes, I am pretty strictly sticking with the meals we cook at home, which have to be more nutritious and healthier than all the dining out I was doing before. I'm also trying to limit my sugar intake (using Stevia, and making coffee at home) and not going to Starbucks every morning anymore which saves me money and is better for me in general. The main problem here is I'm not tracking my calories at all. I wanted to give myself time to transition into my new job (very sedentary job) and get into a routine of cooking and preparing healthy meals before I started restricting my calories. Well it's been several weeks now and I still have no motivation to track calories. I know it's the key, and always has been the key to my success before but I JUST DON'T WANNA. It's also been a major irritant to me that my boyfriend is bulking right now and his calorie allotment is about DOUBLE what mine is, if I were to restrict to lose weight. He's constantly trying to eat more and I'm constantly fighting the urge to binge.
I know I'm making positive changes and I need to stick to them to move forward, but I can't seem to tap into that fire in me that wants this so badly. I need an attitude adjustment, and it can't come soon enough.