Disappointed in Myself. What motivates you to keep going?
Thursday, February 20, 2014
This is not a pity posting - not in the least. However, I am really trying to rationally figure myself out. I lost 30lbs and now gained 15. Why can't I keep the weight off? Why can't I keep this going all year round? Yes, this weather does mess me up! I am so not a winter person and if I could afford it I would be living in the south in the winter. Or hibernating like a bear if that was another option I could afford. BUT what truly makes people keep this going while others cannot? I have been fat all my life.
This is just the way it is. Besides for one year - but then got disappointed in my life and gained it all back. I don't know. I feel like there is something more I need to figure out about this to make this all work. I try and try and do great and then life gets in the way and I stop. But how do people keep muddling through? I don't know why I can't I do know that I DO NOT want to wear size Xlarge again nor have to buy size 18 pants, but if I don't get on the ball again soon I will have no choice.
It is so aggravating! I wish I could be like these people that make up their mind to do it and just get it done. Not start to fall apart again after a few months.
So I ask - what motivates you to keep going? What do you do when life hits you? HOw do you just keep it going?
On another note, I am going to try Zumba classes. I cannot dance, but it is a gym in town and the hours work for me and the price isn't bad either. Wish me luck - and let's hope spring comes soon. I need the sun to make me see the "light" again in more ways than one!