to go back to get ahead
Tuesday, March 04, 2014
Does anyone ever really realize just how much we struggle? I do. Every single morning of my life, when I wake up, and go to the kitchen for my morning coffee, or orange juice, or even water. I am aware of the fact that I have gained weight. I look at my kitchen and I remember the foods I ate the day before and I tell myself, today will be better.
I recall the whole year of 2012 when I was in losing mode, losing 70 lbs from May to January.
Then it stopped.
Then I gained.
I used the excuse of a broken foot for awhile, because I couldnt walk, of course I had my recumbant bike, which I loved at one time, and then grew to hate.
Which I sold.
I have the weather as my excuse right now.
We suffered thru yet another blast of cold, rain, sleet turned to ice, it poured ice from the sky for hours.
It was the oddest thing to watch, it was like rain, only heavier and slower, I watched from my front porch for about 15 minutes til it got too cold.
Then the snow came on top of that.
We must have gotten 5 inches on top of the ice and the county called the roads to be shut for emergencies only.
Didnt stop people from getting on them.
I stayed inside.
I have been sick again.
My immune system must be weaker or I am just feeling the effects of too much heat and dry air.
Whenever I get sick it begins as a sore throat and within 2 days develops into a full blown head cold.
So far its just my throat.
I am on day 3 of the worst sore throat I have felt in years.
I cant take Nyquil or any of those tussins or anything like that, as it makes me jerk and jittery.
People say take Nyquil you will sleep. No, not me. I have just been taking alka seltzer for colds and drinking hot tea.
I hope it passes soon.
I have walked when the sun is out and produces some heat.
But have decided to start some at home workouts to get my butt back in gear.
As for the kitchen and the memories of the food I ate the day before, that is for me a never ending battle.
As each and every single day of my life, I start out good, eating healthy thru the early hours and by late evening I have eaten over my calories and usually end up having some sweet snack, ice cream the last few days, to help soothe the sore throat dont ya know!!!
I really need to get back into that mind frame I was in during 2012.
I never snacked, I ate high protein, yogurt, turkey, cottage cheese, eggs, beans.
I never ate carbs or breads, except a wheat sub from subway about once a week.
I know how.
I know what.
I just need to figure out when.