pizza and numbness

since my late 20s i've had a problem with numbness and tingling in my hands and feet, especially when i sleep. at the time it started i was only a little overweight. it tends to get severe when i eat binge foods. i'd wake up and parts of me would feel so dead that i feared damage to the limb, not knowing how long my circulation had been cut off, and i would pound on my body in an attempt to get circulation moving. it hasn't been that bad in more than a year, however.

last night i had pizza and a soda. by bedtime i noticed a bit of a headache. when i woke up this morning my numbness was worse than usual.

i am not willing to give up pizza today. but i am grateful to be abstinent from binge foods and that my abstinence has given my body enough relief to enable me to see the effects of foods on my body, like--apparently--pizza. pizza is a yellow-light food for me. meaning, it is a food i *could* binge on, if i were so inclined, and if i were in a cycle of binging triggered by X, i might. but it is not a food that *triggers* me to begin binging, which is why i still indulge in it.

maybe because i'm still adjusting to life without foods that i mourn the loss of, i'm not willing to give pizza up just yet, but i am willing to be attentive to my body's cues when i eat it. i intend to, IF i can remember (because i conveniently tend to forget about health at the time i think of eating) monitor my portion and notice whether that helps.

because when i eat it, it tends to be a big meal for me, unless it's frozen, in which case i cut it into portions before cooking. i often have an entire small pizza, which is a bit much for one person. sometimes i eat 2/3 of it, but often the whole thing. if eating smaller portions helps my body, i'm willing to have less.