dont look back, you cant get that moment in time back no way
Wednesday, April 02, 2014
The day started out good, I went walking around 930 and walked an hour. Really felt it in my lungs today, it was a good walk, real!!
The sun was out, so while waiting on my mom at the doctors office, I walked around outside, they really need more benches in my little town.
But I tried to soak up a little sun, and was feeling pretty good, then I went to the post box and got some unneeded, unhappy news, money matters.
I was really angry but after an hour, I said to myself, whats the point in getting all worked up....there is nothing you can do about it!
And so now, while I am still feeling pretty sore inside, I am not letting it ruin the day, or the week or the rest of my life.
I know things happen to us, unexpected things we have no control over sometimes.
But, this is one more example of dealing with addiction, a drug addict or alcoholic might turn to that to deal with anger, pain, etc.
A food addict, such as myself would maybe turn to candy bars or chips, etc.
But I didnt, I came home and I had some smart ones chicken for lunch and I am going to clean house later and have been listening to some good music, and just letting it go.
I was listening to this song the other day and a line says,
"But this world doesn't owe you a debt,
So don't you expect a hand out or me to show you respect,
I got no regrets, why? Cos really its proof,
That makes a good lie better than the hideous truth,
I don't preach or scream ain't trying to teach the scene,
The only guidelines are those you need to read between,"
I am not really sure what it meant to me at the time, but it stuck in my head, I heard it as, Hey, stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop living by your past, stop thinking about, worrying about others thoughts about you and stop expecting someone else to make your life better!! Just stop lying to yourself and face the truth, face the light, face yourself and do what needs to be done.
So, anyway, that song has stuck in my head all week and so after what happened today, I was just like, theres nothing worry is going to do but make me feel even worse.
Just figure out a way to deal with it and make it work.
When one bad thing happens, maybe its a way to show you a new way.
While this one little debt isnt going away and money matters are a big pain in the butt, we did eliminate one debt recently, that freed up close to 250 dollars a month, so, that is one thing, that is a positive and that is on the bright side of things.
And I am sticking to my plan to lose weight and get healthy and stay on track with walking, exercising and living as well and as healthy as I can and I know that worrying and stressing out over a few lost dollars isnt going to change things.
So its all just water under the bridge now.
I just keep walking forward and let whats past stay there.