Fear of Sugar
Thursday, April 03, 2014
I haven't had a chance to blog in a couple of days, not by choice, more just that I am always keeping busy and the past couple of days I had some stuff thrown my way and just kept throwing me off. Last night I didn't sit down until 9pm and I was exhausted, both physically and mentally! Now I still have to play catch up on cleaning, but wanted to blog first. Priorities!
So, I have been officially done with my Whole30 for a few days now, but nothing has really changed. I did eat my 90% chocolate the other night, but ended up taking one bite and tossing the rest. It is too bitter for me. I guess I will try the 72% one, but I haven't felt the itch to run out and get it, so obviously it isn't that high on my needs list. I did have another small run in with those cashews again, again nothing like what it used to be, just enough for me to know that I just can't have them at all. I should just try to convince myself they are off program. My husband likes to eat them and buys the big thing from Costco. I think I am going to ask him to put them in the cupboard that I can't reach at all. It really is the only problem that I seem to have. The rest of the day, I do pick at foods sometimes, but they are carrot sticks and grape tomatoes and sometimes if we have it, frozen mango (I LOVE this snack!) Some people would feel good about the path that I have taken, but I must say it is a little scary to me. I am a bit scared about reintroducing sweet snacks/treats. I just don't feel confident that I have it in me to just eat whatever the serving is without it sending me into a binge. I am debating this all the time in my head. I am not sure if I should just stay away for a bit more or if I should just jump in and learn how to eat just a serving and leave it alone. I wish that these past thirty days cured my sugar/food addiction. It seems weird to me that I have a fear of sugar. My son has been begging me to make these Lemon Meringues this week and I finally have all the ingredients. I can make them and pretty easily eat none, but once I eat one, it seems to snowball from there. That is the part that bugs me. It is just like the cashews!
On the fitness part of my journey, I didn't mention much in the month of March. I was pretty faithful to my schedule with weight training. For the most part last month had no cardio in it. Though the weight routine I use does leave me sweaty and with a slightly elevated heart rate, but not cardio. I decided that this month I am going to start adding in a couple of SLOW walks. I mean slow, like Samuel pace slow, a couple of times a week. I want to see where my limits are with my knees. Who knows maybe I will be able to build up to a couple of short runs each week again, maybe I just need to ease into it. This month I am still using the same weight routine, but I am either upping the weights, or upping the reps. Some things with my shoulder I just can't use a heavier weight yet.
Well, I am off to play catch up on all my cleaning that I wasn't able to get to the past couple of days. I hope that everyone has a wonderful day!