A good end to a mixed weekend.
Monday, April 21, 2014
Friday started off as Alright, Alright Not a bad start to the day. Son is going to come visit for the weekend. Then hit Alright, not really looking forward to this but I will do it, Ended with Why was I pushed to have to do this, it was completely unnecessary. Saturday was I just don't care today since yesterday was such a roller-coaster and I want to coast in neutral today. Ended with an Yay, Sam decided to come over and hang out for a few hours. At the end of the day I felt better than when it started. Today woke up and saw the physical results of an I Dont Care day, woke up and went aaack what happned to this place. Get busy and take care of what wasn't taken care of yesterday, start to relax a little with that done. Now time to start on stuff that needs to be done day. Had a nice lunch instead of dinner so som goes home today. I love it when he is here to visit. I do enjoy the life of my children being grown and on their own. But I stil LOVE when they are home for a visit. Get both at the same time and it just makes the house feel right. Have a couple friends who come over regularly for Game of Thrones and it was a nice visit. With the all mixed moments and such this weekend ended up with A Oh-so-Nice Sunday.
It is nice to know how to appreciate the good moments small or big again. I am learning how to catch the glimpses of light in a dark thought and make it grow. I do not stay in those negative mind frames for too long now. I can see the good in my life again and know how to put that into the fore front.
Life is an amazing gift and I have spent too many years not making the best of it. Not any more. I am going to savor every moment and I know they will not all be what I want them to be. Sometimes life gives you something you didn't see coming and wish you hadn't gone through but then there are moments you will cherish forever. I want to be around and get as many of those cherished moments as possible and they only way to have that is too live a healthier life.
Happy and Healthy go hand in hand together Love this journey, Physically I am a little stronger than I used to be. But mentally I am an iron woman it feels like. I am using my voice again. I secluded myself for a few years and that was not good and I am stepping back out and being around people again. I crave socializing. Wont't say it is easy, still have those fears of being judged but before I didn't like what I saw and really wasn't thinking of how they might feel about me it was how I saw myself. Now I like myself and proud of how far I come.