KATIEM929

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Feeling down & needed to vent

Monday, April 21, 2014

Today is the worst I've felt in a long time. Not sure if it's all the sugar I consumed yesterday, or if it's just depression rearing its ugly head again. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry. I am really struggling emotionally lately. I've been eating like crap and haven't exercised at all, so it's really no surprise that I've gained back nearly all of what I lost with my DietBet in November. I feel so overwhelmed by everything in my life and I can't seem to get motivated to do anything that I need to do. My house is a wreck all the time - there's stuff everywhere - and I hate it, but there's so much of it I don't know how to start. I can't even get motivated to do much of anything at work...just the bare minimum. And I'm forgetting things all the time, which makes me look bad. If I'm brutally honest, I'm actually nervous that I will lose my job if I can't get it together but even that doesn't motivate me to get going.

Most of my extended family celebrated Easter together at my aunt's house, which was nice. It's good to see everyone and catch up / visit with them. Seeing my cousins all losing weight and getting healthy is bittersweet for me. I am genuinely happy for them, but it makes me even more self conscious and unhappy with myself.

Things will get better, right?
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  • BATCHICK
    I'm sorry you're feeling down. Treat yourself with compassion, don't beat yourself up over where you think you should be. Maybe since your cousins are seeing some success you could reach out to them for support? Either way, these feelings will pass. Just focus on small achievable goals you can accomplish today and the rest will catch up.

    (PS - a fun workout like a leisurely stroll or bike ride usually gets me out of a funk)
    2467 days ago
  • PENNYSAVER2
    Hang in there. emoticon because you are WORTH the effort.

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    2468 days ago
  • KNH771
    Sorry to hear that you're struggling. Remember that this journey has peaks and valleys and is never a straight line for anyone. Don't try to take on all of the things that have you down at once. Pick one small thing and just work on it. When you feel you've got that controlled, add another. Baby steps and kindness... Hang in there!
    2468 days ago
  • no profile photo CD12169506
    I'm sorry you're feeling like this Katie. I have had the same feelings lately and you know what? It does get better. It may take some time but it does get better. You can do it...we can do it! I hope you know you are not alone in this!! emoticon emoticon
    2468 days ago
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