Saturday, May 03, 2014
I had success yesterday. A small step but a step forward non the less! I did not gain any weight, I did not go over on my carbs, calories or anything. I met my goal of water intake. I raised my time exercising. I slept longer, which I needed! I am going to try new exercises with my husband today. It is more strength training than aerobic, but at least I am doing something. It is my attempt to not let anyone sabotage me over the weekend.
I did have to ask two of my three kids to stop bringing cookies home from work. I explained it will sabotage me and it is tempting to lose my self control and I am vulnerable right now.
Should be a quiet day for the most part. With one son going to a friends house for a play date, another hanging out with friends because he was dumped by his prom date and today is prom, and the third son being at work until 8pm. It will give me a chance to have a meeting with my husband about food. I know he supports me within, but I need him to actively support me physically by helping me with groceries, and not allowing certain foods to be around. And have him stop eating bad in front of me then telling me to eat well. I know he doesn't know he is doing some of this stuff. But it lights a fire under me in a bad way. He needs to understand how it makes me feel and that he can handle things differently and it will help me be more successful. Family of 5. I am the only female. It has turned into a situation that if you don't dive in and eat, then you just don't eat. I need to change that somehow. But I need everyone on board. Not just me. Wish me luck!