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Wednesday, May 14, 2014

I honestly believe doctors are trying to kill me!!!
Well, maybe just the people who work for them.
I have been so confused the last few days, but finally, hopefully, its all straightened out, for now.
I still have my appointment coming up on the 20th and I dread it, but also look forward to it because at least I will have some idea.
Today, I decided to take a break from it all.
I got up early, called about the one appointment I had, cancelled it, then went to the walking track.
And that is the healthiest place for me right now.
As you can tell, dealing with doctors and the red tape of insurance companies has stressed me out to the point, I just dont want to deal with it.
I have this one upcoming appt, I will keep and then thats that til August, unless something happens.
It is such a nice day out today.
So, I am just going to relax and stop the madness of worrying about this or that when it comes to these appointments, they arent a matter of life or death afterall.
So now, heres another issue. I am sitting here, feeling this gnawing hunger pain, or is it pang? either way. Where is it coming from?
I just finished lunch, I had weight watchers steak fajitas and a banana. Is the banana the culprit???
The high sugar content???
All I have had to drink today is water, no coffee.
But heres the kicker, I went ahead and sparked my "planned" food for the day and I am going to go over calories and still am no where near fiber and iron.
I am trying to figure out what I can eliminate, because really it is such a minimal amount of food.
I guess I can let the greek yogurt go, and replace it with some grapes, spinach maybe. Cantaloupe.
But then that lessens my protein for the day.
It is so hard to get all the nutrients and still stay at calorie range.
That is probably why I take so many vitamins, iron tablets, etc every day.
This elliptical, a friend had one she wanted out of her house, so she gave it to me and while it doesnt keep the digits, it still works for exercise.
It is kicking my booty!!!
5 minutes yesterday and I was about dead, and those 5 minutes I had to break up.
Going to go for 5 again today.
Little steps.
I just hope I start to see some results, and I hope this growling stomach shuts up!!!
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    The elliptical kicks my butt too! I am in the same spot as you, just trying to successfully do 5 minutes! But we can do it, as you said, baby steps will still move us forward! And I know the nightmare of doctors, vitamins, watching nutrients and in my case, also dealing with brand new diabetes diagnosis. But you are doing a good job of handling it all.
    2355 days ago
    It can be maddening to try to balance all the nutrients and get them just right. I do know that you'd be better off with an orange rather than grapes. Since I signed up for better health insurance, I've been going crazy trying to get everything done that they want me too. Taking care of yourself can be a lot of hard work. I love days where I can just relax all day. Take good care of yourself!
    2356 days ago
    Loved the blog. Been there doing it.
    Too many doctors, too little food, not enough exercise, not enough nutrients, so little time!

    Take it one day at a time. I'm impressed--little steps!

    2356 days ago
    I hate to give cliches, but don't sweat the small stuff!
    2356 days ago
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