Well I got home very early this morning about 2 a.m. from going to a late movie with my husband. This is the latest I had been up in a long time. We went to a late movie so we wouldn't munch on popcorn and soda. I resisted the cotton candy!!!!!! That is a first for me! I had no pop corn either. So I see this as a success!
We did walking before the movie too so we got some exercise in. The night was beautiful and calm, cool yet not too cold. Clear out, just amazing.
I got up this morning and first thing I did was get my husband up for a walk! I quickly threw on clothes, got some water and fruit, took my meds, blood, and insulin and was on my way! I was on a mission. I was not going to put off till tomorrow what I could get done today! So if I do nothing else today, I at least got a 90 minute walk in! So did he hee hee!
I am learning quite a bit this time in my journey of life. I have done the eat right exercise thing many times before. Sometimes successful, sometimes not so much. And I have come to realize I need breaks now and again. And it is necessary to do so. One day I will be able to go full force through the whole week...but I am working up to it.
With the weather getting warmer I went looking for some shorts to wear. The only ones I could find today were smaller than I have been able to fit into in quite some time. I had been turning to elastic wasted pants and Capri pants to "hide" my legs. Well I figured it wouldn't hurt to TRY and get them on and to my shock I could button them! They are snug...and short
but they fit. Now I have to lose more to feel publicly comfortable in them! But I will take the fact I can button them and not have them cut my circulation off as a success.
It is important to realize the little things as successes. I notice my bra doesn't cut me anymore, my neck is thinner than my face, my eyes are wider open, my blood sugar is so much lower, I don't feel like sleeping as much as I used to, I am full of energy more often, I am making better choices for myself, I make sure I get exercise in no matter how hard or easy it is for me. I am happier. It isn't about that size 2 dress for me, or seeing that scale hit my youthful weight. It is about someone telling me I look like I feel great. And actually feeling great and knowing I am healthier. There is so much I am going to accomplish in life. And yes, perks like a low weight and cute clothes and stuff like that are great! But deep inside I need to prove to myself I can get myself healthier. And I see a change in that direction already after almost one month. I started out believing it wasn't going to happen or happen as fast as it has due to my history of trying. But maybe this is my moment, my time to succeed. I am going to work as hard as I possibly can get away with to follow this success and enjoy everything that comes with it.
I thank everyone who helps me along the way.