lower than a snakes belly, a mud snake!!!
Wednesday, June 04, 2014
"I dont know why I act the way I do, like I aint got a single thing to lose"!! Tim McGraw.
Today I was feeling pretty rough. I had a bad stomach ache last night, I took some gas-x and went to bed, woke up with the same tummy ache, only I also had a headache and muscle aches, soreness.
Once again I skipped my morning walk and instead I went this evening.
I had pretty much had my calories for the day early, with the exception of having my snack calories, which was supposed to have been a greek yogurt.
However, the evening went awry.
I went to the walking track, only to get rained out, hard core thunder storm rained out only 25 minutes into my walk.
So, I came home, and after heavy downpours, I should have known better, but I pulled onto the grass in the yard to turn so I could back my car into the driveway, only to get my front wheel drive car stuck in the mud.
So, I come inside, change out of my walking clothes, feed the dog, and make myself a turkey sandwich on whole wheat.
So, I notice the dog is being very quiet, go to see what shes doing and she has barfed up all of her food behind the chair.
The evening just keeps getting better.
Clean that up and sit down and have a big bowl of ice cream with 100 calorie pack of mini cookies and a glass of milk.
So, I am feeling guilty and lowdown.
I honestly dont know how many calories I had this evening.
Over what I had already sparked. Maybe I will spark it later, but from my rough calculations, I would guess about 500 OVER my already alloted calories for the day, maybe even a little more.
So here I sit, feeling guilty about having given in to cravings.
And not even just cravings, but emotional eating.
We are supposed to be getting some heavy thunder storms and more rain tonight, which worries me that will make it even harder to get my car out tomorrow.
I feel alot like that car, STUCK!!!
I am the tire and food is the mud and I am wollering and spinning and moving this way and that and I cant get out of its grip!!!
I sit here feeling like a HUGE failure.
and just wishing I knew how to handle my stress better.