Thursday, June 05, 2014
Beautiful day here today. The sun is out, the birds are chirping, the air smells of flowers. I decided to wear a tank top today. Now, it feels good to be able to wear one. But I feel like it is too much skin to be showing yet. I guess I am not comfortable, or need to get comfortable with the shorts and tank thing. It is cooler for me, and more comfortable. So long long pants and longer shirts. I am no supermodel. But they fit now, and I don't ooze out from them and they feel better in this warm/hot weather. I think I will accept the smaller cut of clothes and allow myself to be comfortable in them.
I have a new thing I have noticed. My legs quit hurting. They get tired and sore after I work out but they aren't hurting anymore before I work out. So bike...get ready to up the tension. I need to keep making my legs strong! I dream to ride outside the way I used to. And I need to be strong to do that. I know if I set out now I would get only so far and need to have someone help me back. Heart...get ready to get stronger too. Lungs...be ready to breathe deeper and more often. These are the things I really work on EVERY DAY. A strong body. Not just my arms and legs, but my heart and lungs. It feels good to get stronger. It is a place I never thought I could get to again.
Guys that have been supporting me, I think I have my food fear conquered for my vacation. Thanks for caring about me enough to speak up. Keep it up, I know I will need you guys more. But over all, I am doing quite well. Things have fallen into place. I am sure some monkey will throw a wrench into my smoothly running process, but I can handle it.
Today, I will do at least an hour on my bike. I will enjoy my kids. I will love my husband. And appreciate my friends in real life and on here. Things are changing so fast in my life. It is nice to be able to come to SP and write, slow things down, and just stop my brain to focus again.
Off to a beautiful day!