I enjoy writing in this blog but it isn't the ONLY thing I enjoy! I like experimenting in the kitchen, singing to music, listening to music, riding my elliptical bike, lifting weights, hanging out with my kids, laughing with my husband, emailing friends, camping, hiking, fishing, and so many more things. I am in no way a person who sits and sulks and does nothing. I may want to but I don't! Because it gets me no where. And it only punishes me when I do that so I just don't do that. I may be sad, hurt or angry one day or even up to a week depending on the drama thrown at me from specific people that are part of my life. But I choose to stay away from drama. But things done and said to me still hurt. That is a human reaction. I know I am a good, strong, worthy, smart, funny person that deserves happiness and kindness and genuine people in my life, ones that love me and appreciate me. And I will enjoy THOSE people. Not the ones who put me down, spread lies about me, tell me they will invite me and don't, or just don't include me at all but rub in my face I wasn't there. Those things are just hurtful. And unnecessary. I am not talking about anyone on SP. I am talking about people in my personal life. People I should be able to trust and feel they love me and feel that I am important to them. But it is clear I can not trust them, it shows that I am not important to them nor do they show love. So I will be a duck. I will let it roll off my back, turn my head and QUACK and waddle forward with my beautiful day. Nothing and NO ONE will bring me down and keep me there. I just think it is sad that someone who may not be wanting me in their life will take it out on my kids really punishing them, not me. That's not right. People should be uplifting not tear people down. It is funny now that I think about it...the one person who taught me that is one person doing it to me! Oh well, their loss. They are missing out.
I am much less sad today and better off now that I got that off my chest. Again it is not about anyone on SP. Again, I am not sitting on my butt not doing anything. I just got bothered by trying to understand why certain people treat me the way they do when I don't deserve it. That's all.
I am sore today... Anyone who has used Statins and had the side effect of severe pain on top of arthritis, knows how intense it can be. I have found that a high dose of a certain supplement (mentioned to me by my doctor) helps the soreness so much. But with finances not so high, and us paying toward our deductible I was running low on the supplement. I got some new stuff so I should be less sore soon! But I had to cut my dose in half so I wouldn't run out yet keep some in my system. I hope to get off this statin. My numbers were good last time, and I know they wont be checked this next time so I just have to hurry up and wait to see. I can do that. I need to strengthen my heart and hopefully undo some damage. THAT is the purpose among a couple others for setting out to tackle this journey for me.
Time to take the meds and let them kick in so I can exercise. AND PACK!!! Trip is coming up. So IN ADVANCE I apologize to anyone I may not get back to in a timely fashion, I may not get wifi where I will be for a few days, but that doesn't start until Sunday.
My spirits are good today, mind still a little confused by all the drama, but hopefully I can throw it behind me and not have it come up anymore. HA wishful thinking lol.