Some Mondays are Mondayer than others
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Am dealing with medical issues in addition to weight ones. Had to undergo labs this weekend. The results were not good on a couple of fronts. I was so upset. Was not sure how to deal with it.
Went back to my old standby, which was food. It was stupid, I knew it wasn't going to help, and when I did it, it really didn't. Still I felt I had no other tool in my bag that would work, and I felt I had to do something.
2 things to explore at this point. The ability to review what I am doing on an objective basis, and the part of me that makes decisions, good or bad.
I know this will not be easy, and I'm not exactly sure what to do with what I find. Not sure how knowing will change how I react to distress, and how it will address compulsion to do someting when I feel overwhelmed by feelings. It' is very hard to ride the tide of feelings when they are so intense.