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Friday, June 20, 2014

I have been watiing til late night to blog. But today I decided to go for it early, maybe it will help me to stay motivated.
I havent walked now for 2 days and I am really beating myself up about it.
I knew rain was coming last night and today so why I didnt walk yesterday morning, was the threat of rain.
Let me explain a little. Rain does not bother me, I dont mind rain and wouldnt even mind walking in a light drizzle. But the track where I walk, for some reason, is slippery when wet.
To the point of scary slick.
It must be the paint they coated it with. It is slick like slime. But all that aside, I will find time today to get in a workout, weights and bands and the machine I have come to loathe!!!

I decided to have some eggs this morning to get some protein to start the day.
I am going to focus on protein today.
I get so overwhelmed. This has happened to me before to the point that I stopped sparking for weeks.
JUST TOO MUCH. Constantly focusing on what I eat, how it tracks, how many nutrients does it have, etc.
It consumes me.
So from time to time I have to just step back and take a short break from tracking my food and fitness points.
I just have to focus on my health and not on points and calories.
Walking is my thing, I go there not only for weight and fitness, but for my peace of mind. My ME time.
Listen to my music and just forget everything else. That doesnt always work because we carry everything inside us, we carry out stresses and emotions with us and there are so many that come out of me when I am walking.
I find answers and sometimes I find more questions.

Speaking of walking NO ONE gave me any suggestions for some new music to add.
Sometimes I feel like just not blogging either because I get one or two comments, makes me feel like a waste of time when no one is reading.
I am guilty of not always taking the time to read blogs. I cant judge anyone else.
I just sometimes feel all alone over here.
Today I guess the rain will keep me inside, I have a new book to read, was going to save it for the beach, but with the little one going with us, I am sure I will be too busy having fun.
Hope everyone has a great day.
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  • GORDON66
    I don't track my food either. I'm trying to stop obsessing about food.

    Walking music. Hmmm - I love, love, love Metallica - Seek and Destroy - but my favorite is Fade to Black. While the subject might be a downer, the guitar solo at the beginning of the song is killer! I'm also very fond of Pantera's Cementery Gates. However, you're probably better off with Vivaldi's Four Seasons. emoticon

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    2319 days ago
    You're not alone emoticon emoticon Alot of times people read but don't comment, I do it too sometimes when I feel like I don't have much of value to add, but people are always cheering you on even if silently. I know I am! We're all here to succeed in this emoticon

    Music, not sure if you'd like my choices, I have 'mood' playlists. Right now I'm going for a 60's/70's soul vibe for walking with billie holliday, wilson pickett, solomon burke, al green, tom jones. When I don't want to think about the words of songs I'll play classical, the best of vivaldi, mozart, chopin, bach. The choices are endless! One thing I do like to do when I'm looking for new songs is a 'youtube journey' Basically just search any old song on youtube, then when ready for the next song you must ONLY choose one from the suggestions on the side. Opens you up to a whole new world you might not have thought of before.

    Good luck, holidays soon a coming! And don't quit blogging, people are here emoticon
    2319 days ago
    I actually started out ignoring the nutrients entirely - you're right, I found it overwhelming. Instead I just tried to get CLOSE to the calories each day. It was a long slow process to adjust my eating habits to even get in the vicinity of my max calories daily, but I figured even getting a LITTLE closer daily was an improvement. And I figure on this healthy lifestyle journey it doesn't matter whether we're traveling fast or slow. What matters is that we're headed in the right direction!

    2319 days ago
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