Thursday, June 26, 2014
Whew! What a time yesterday!!! Went to Summerfest. It was over an hour away from where I lived, but my kids got me Bruno Mars tickets for Mother's Day.. THIS was by far the biggest most expensive thing anyone has ever gotten me. I didn't know how to accept this at first, then got excited about it.
Well my hubby took yesterday and today off to be able to go with me. He is a guy stuck in the 80's grunge rock lol. BUT he went with me to see Bruno Mars. I caught him wiggling his butt and tapping his toes and waving his arm in the air, dancing with me when I encouraged him to. I belted out all the songs like I said I would, danced and allowed myself to be part of me. I did hold back alittle.
It was cold! We had to get sweat shirts to keep warm by the lake. It cleared up right as the concert started. It was fun! Been so many years since I have been in that atmosphere. I did very well not eating bad stuff or drinking. We visited the calmer side of the festival. It was a different view than I am used to partaking in. I appreciated my husband being willing to do this for me.
We walked quite a bit from 11 am to midnight. Traffic was insane. Took an hour and 40 minutes to get out of the parking ramp! But I didn't care. I was happy to be able to have a taste of my old life but in a clean way. This was a scary day for me. I have so many demons I have overcome and now live a better, healthier life. It was terrifying for me to mix the two worlds. But I did it! I am always scared that my triggers will be tripped, and they were! But I managed to maneuver through them. This was more than a fitness/nutrition thing I was facing. I had much more dangerous things I needed to face and test myself with. And overall I passed with flying colors. It was hilarious to people watch yesterday. I am sore today in the calves and hand/wrist. But I will live! That's why I am sore today...because I allowed myself to live!