First Half of The Year 2014!
Saturday, June 28, 2014
This is just a summary of all that's happened so far this year, good and bad and in between! :-)
January: I weighed in at a phenomenal 187 lbs! I'm only 5 feet 3inches tall/short/whatever you can call it!! Hehehe! Running a cafe can take its toll and for me weight gain was a huge part of that toll. This first quarter of 2014 was really dismal and felt like life was worthless and nor was it heading in the right direction. There was no hope of a holiday or a nice dinner with DH, no recreation, no time for a walk or anything. Just crazy work. Crisis management, one after the other after the other all the time.
February: weight still 187 lbs. Husband and I were sick and tired with our cafe's staff trouble, internal politics, staff quitting altogether, electricity problems, generator conking off etc. STRESS big time.
March: weight still around the same. I decide to draw a line. No more sitting at the cafe all day long. Its NOT my priority OVER my health. I only get to the cafe at 5pm everyday and take time out to read books, relax and stress bust. I start cooking at home everyday. By the 3rd week of march I slowly decide on working on my weight and health. I start slow. I'm cautious, don't wanna put more on my plate than I can chew. I have a totally different approach this time; there's more on that on my spark page intro.
April: From end march to end April I'm 4lbs lighter. I'd given up all carbs completely; something I didn't do for long cause I realised its not in tune with my idea of a lifestyle change. I cant give up carbs forever. But till end April or so I wasn't eating wheat/ rice/ or bread. Pastas and pastries Im still off, but I do eat rice / whole wheat bread / and Indian rotis made with whole wheat flour. I began feeling better, my workouts got easier. I was soaking in 20mins worth of sunshine everyday, I did accupressure for better energy and hypo-thyroid (which I suspect I have in at least a small degree). Good month.
May: Start weight 183, End weight 177 lbs. We are still running the cafe, but I'm kinda putting it way back on my priority list. The repercussions of this are becoming visible. Customers are going away not so happy. Food is being served with salt at times. Many items are simply announced "not available" by the chef (that's an absolute no no, why should any item be "not available"??) That part of my life was still stressful.
June: Start weight was 175 lbs. This is the plateau month mostly. I was 175 barely for a day and went back up to 177. Its a month of lots of stress and lots of sadness. 8th June, having realised that we don't really depend on the cafe financially, and knowing that it takes all of our time, energy and effort, and it gives us stress and bad health.. we decided to shut it down. We had run it well, made it super popular, it had great reviews and ratings, but it was like a hobby that took too much of a toll. We never ran it for the money in any case. And it didn't give us much money either. We made sure we paid our staff what they deserved and took home very little. Shutting the cafe was a heart wrenching move but a necessary one. I also started facing mood swings and my MIL who we live with was also getting super controlling (since March when she noticed I have cut hours at the cafe) to add to the situation. In India its tradition to live with in laws. Not everyone does it now a days, it becoming rare, but my husband likes the idea of staying with his folks and having a gaggle of people to come home to. Anyway. So basically June has been a crazy stressful month and around the 3rd week of June I came home to my parents place to relax, recuperate and mainly to get away from the in laws for a much needed break. I end off june as of 28th June at 174.5lbs - This is post TOM and post a few days of a bad bad tummy.
I guess a whole host of opportunities lie ahead. I need to figure out a way to keep myself out of the house, to be involved in something and to earn some money. My husband has a decent job as a pilot, so money isn't a requirement, but I've learnt enough to know that one must be independent to even just earn some respect.
Hope this wasn't a boring post!