Down, down, down...

At least I'm hoping that's what the scale keeps doing. I'm down another 2 pounds this week. I've lost a total of 12 pounds in 5 weeks and I'm a little afraid it's going to stop. I just keep stocking up on healthy food and this week I planed a couple active get togethers with friends.

I'm pretty proud of myself for not stress eating this weekend. I had something crazy thrown at me on Friday. I was called into a meeting with a higher level boss and one of our executives. I was insanely nervous. They told me that there was going to be a lot of restructuring due to budget cuts and my job was no longer going to be available to me after the third week of August. I'm crushed. I love my job and my company. I've been there 6 years and finally have two weeks of vacation and 40 hours sick/ personal time each year. I also have great benefits and a decent hourly rate. I've also formed excellent relationships with our clients. They offered me a part-time position, doing the same job with the same hourly rate, but less hours and no benefits. I'm at a loss.

I spent the weekend in shock. I'm basically mourning. My job is the best thing in my life. I don't know what to do. I don't think I'll be able to afford to go part-time, and the odd part-time split shift hours will prevent me from getting a second job. :-( Plus, the job market around here is just awful. It's hard to find full time and decent pay.

The only positive is that my fiance is willing to pick me up on his health insurance and if I do work the part time hours, it will leave more time for exercise...