The Year of Living Better - Day 2
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
So, yesterday was day 1. It started out well (I was tired but felt good overall). My fear was that, as has often been the case, I'd lose my resolve by the end of the day. And...it was close.
Earlier in the day, my husband and I had discussed going for a walk after dinner (I've set a goal to get a minimum of 10 minutes of exercise a day). He was beat when he got home and told me that he was tired and how about we start tomorrow instead. At first, I conceded. I told him that no matter what, then, we're going tomorrow night! And then the tears started. I'm not even really sure where they came from. I was scared. Here it was day 1 and it felt like I was giving up. That I was quitting on myself. Again. As I talked it through with hubby he asked me if I wanted to go for the walk. I told him yes. I felt I HAD to. That if I didn't make this simple goal on day 1, then what chance did I have of making real long term changes.
We did go for a walk and while walking I started thinking about my reaction to hubby not wanting to walk. I realized that I am responsible for whether or not I meet my goals, not hubby. If something is important to me then it has to be a priority for ME, not for someone else. It was actually very empowering to acknowledge that.
Tonight, hubby came home very tired again (poor guy is in the second week of commuting 70 miles each way on top of a 12 hour work day) and we stayed up much too late for him. He was also pretty grumpy. I asked him if he was up for a walk tonight and when he said "probably later", I told him that I was going to go right after dinner and he was welcome to join me (which he did!). It was a pretty quiet walk since he wasn't feeling very talkative but it still feel great to get it done!
I will be 50 in just over 400 days and am determined to make this the year of living better!