My neighbor died today......
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
I'm not certain why I feel the need to post anything right now, other than a need to be doing "something".
My neighbor was bitten by a rattlesnake yesterday and she died this morning. Where I live, rattlesnakes are common. My husband's killed two on the property all ready this year. Rattlesnake bites happen, but I've never known anyone who has died from one. And I know this is bothering me, because I have been busy doing "something" all day long..... doing "something" to avoid the emotions that need to flow.
My house is spotlessly clean. I walked over 2 miles. I gardened for hours, water the orchard by hand, watched garbage TV shows that normally would have annoyed the heck out me. I've eaten, I mean grazed, on sweets and treats in between lunch and dinner and just finished another after dinner treat. Now I'm on a complete sugar high.
I am being a "Martha" to avoid being a "Mary"....
I think what is bothering me most, is that I was asked if my neighbor was a Christian. Embarrassed, I had to honestly answer that I did not know. A woman I have known for over 10 years. A woman, who I shared garden veggies with, talked with about her horses, our dogs, our children, her grandchildren. We waved when we passed each other in our cars and traded Christmas cookies. I did not know if she believed in Jesus.
Talk about a missed opportunity. The opportunity to share the greatest love we can share with each other...... the love of Jesus. The "Martha" in me is busy doing "something" because the "Mary" in me is ashamed.