My Fatitude Was Showing And Then.......
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
This morning I felt down and disgusted with myself. It didn't help matters any that I was off my game when I woke up either. I got on the scale and wasn't happy with the number. As Coach Dean would say, my Fatitude was showing! I wasn't being kind to myself either. To work out or not to work out was my next question. I decided to just go ahead and do a light workout even though I just didn't feel like it. Before I left the house, I decided to track my breakfast. Suddenly I began to feel more in control.
I did 50 minutes of easy water jogging. The water was very chilly, I was late for class and could have said "forget it" but I didn't. The water temperature motivated me to move a little faster or freeze.
Once I warmed up (it took about 30 minutes until I was comfortable) I started to feel better. When I got out of the water, I did a series of calf stretches. The stretches really helped my pain level and my mood improved even more.
After a nice warm shower, I went to physical therapy. I rode the stationary bike at a brisk pace for 5 minutes to warm up. My therapist put me through a series of new exercises which I also tolerated well. We discussed re-introducing the exercise that caused me problems. I discovered that the way I was doing it was a bit too advanced for my current condition and we corrected it. I was so relieved!
I went home after physical therapy. I ate a healthy lunch and again I tracked everything I put into my mouth. I was conscious of the fact that I suddenly felt in control. My fatitude toward myself had under gone a metamorphosis. Why, I asked myself? The answer was clear. I have taken back control of my eating and exercise. By tracking what I eat, I am controlling food, it isn't controlling me. By doing some exercise, even though I felt down, I took back control of my body and no longer allowed myself to remain static. I was being much kinder to myself too. The end result is that I like myself more today. I now feel motivated! I can do this!