I must start this blog stating that I did well turning my talk around this morning when I would notice my frustration rising with little boy. I am going to have to work hard at remembering to do that so I can change the voice inside my head to reflect the truth. These are his choices and I am not a failure if I do all I can and he still chooses differently. (Thank you Trish for validating that thought!)
I calmly made it through the morning even with kids being fussy with each other at the vet office. I wanted to leave them home, but they wanted to go. LOL I was thankful for the help though getting the houndies in and out of the truck. My first time taking the "new to us" Dodge Dakota! Really need to get it cleaned inside and out though...still a mess, but we haven't made it a priority yet with all the dirty projects going in and out of the truck bed.
Swim lessons went well for both of them (4 more to go!) and then we came home for lunch. I did call the chiropractor's office while at the pool and made an appointment for this afternoon to once again reset these emotions. I couldn't believe I actually waivered about whether or not to do that over supply boxes for co-op! I am glad I placed myself as the priority, but that tells you how off my internal balance was today.
I'm thankful I went in.... my balance was way off and he had to work harder than usual to restore it. He then went after my emotions and said that something was attached to my heart so he cleared out those negatives for me. Interesting.... I know it is working because I'm tired. He also advised me to discontinue my current weight loss program as my brain is just not getting the healthy fats that it needs. He said since I've been doing this long-term (since October) my brain just can't keep things going as smoothly so it is time to make changes. I promised him I would switch to the next stage tomorrow when I see the Nutritionist. Have to get my metabolism regulated. I am sad that I only have 40 pounds to go, but I am happy that I am down 87 lb. and gave myself a jump-start on my health. If I find the last 40 just won't go on their own over the next six months I can go back on this program for a month or two and finish it off, but for now I know this is the right thing to do.
Now, for the irony of the decision made (co-op supplies vs. my health). I did get all the pencils sharpened and distributed into their individual class bags. That was the hardest part of the task at hand for the supply boxes. I only need about a dozen items from the office store and know exactly what boxes they go into and that will take all of about 10 minutes!
Tonight's decision.... go to Costco or not with my daughter to do price shopping and pick up a few items. The tiredness is what is getting me, but I know she could use an outing. Feeling very sad today about her hamster. If not, we'll go tomorrow instead.
Tomorrow: Nutritionist, swim lessons, Isaac's counselor here at the house.
Bible study: I have been able to find more time lately to work on my individual bible study time. Very thankful about that! I am working through Beth Moore's "James" study and honestly maybe there was a reason it took me so long because the lessons are so relevant to things happening in and around our family right now. I knew I was being pushed to do this study about a year ago and had only gotten through two weeks of the eight by the time we moved to the new house. At any rate...I'm now on the seventh week and learning so much. Need to start looking for a new one soon!
BL Challenge - Team Emerald: This week marks our 6th weigh-in out of 10! The time is flying by! So proud of this group too...they are doing amazing things and working so hard! Go Emeralds! Karen's an awesome co-leader too!
5% Challenge - Team Daisy: I haven't been doing very well with this challenge, but I'm sticking with it.