Tomorrow...

I am writing this quick to try to get past this thought. Tomorrow is my blood draw. They will be checking my A1C, potassium levels, and liver function. No kidney check, cholesterol or triglycerides this time! Yeah!!
Next Wednesday we will go over the results of my blood draw, check my weight and BP. My mind is running a million miles a minute of what I have done good and bad, what I haven't done that helps me and hurts me. I am so anxious! I have been giving this go around more than I have ever done in my life. I am proud of all I have done. I have beat myself up over bad choices whether they were intentional or not intentional. Over all I never forget to eat right! Exercise! and watch my stress and carb count. Monkey wrenches get thrown in like family. Man they always choose the worst time to stress me out. I am choosing to take care of myself this time around. I need to do it for me, my health, my marriage, my kids. I can't take care of others if I don't take care of myself first. I wont be around to take care of others if I don't take care of myself!
So, My A1C was at 8 last time. I am really working toward lowering that below 7. I want them to see I lost 20! lbs. I want to drop my blood pressure 30 points. I checked that over the weekend 3 times and I am confident it will be at a very good level.
I take 2000mg a day of metformin and currently at 30 units of insulin for my diabetes. I eventually want to change that to less. It may not happen now, but one day. I take heart meds and kidney meds. I want to lessen those too. I know I can't get off a couple of them, and I am at peace with that. But the metformin and insulin...I am really working toward lowering.
I have been dealing with this since I was diagnosed at 19 and know I had issues as a kid that were not diagnosed. I was underweight growing up. I am overweight as an adult. I am going to be 42 this year. And this birthday WILL BE one to celebrate!
Ok, long enough water break....back to the bike! I just needed to put this out there.