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i talked myself into it, or did i

Thursday, July 24, 2014

I came to a conclusion this morning. I am a very very indecisive person.
Making something as simple as a doctors appointment, or a hair appointment, for most people, takes as long as picking up the phone and making the call.
But for me, it takes weeks of research, asking questions, and then picking up the phone and laying it back down at least half a dozen times.
I sit here, one month into this problem with my foot and still havent made an appointment with a Neurologist.
There are people out there reading this right now, thinking whats the big deal.
Well in a nutshell, I live in a very rural area, we are served by one hospital in the area.
There are 2 neurologists who see patients here and I have seen them, and do not care for them, both.
So, I cant decide, do I go ahead and take my chance with the lesser of the two evils, or do I branch out and go outside of my comfort zone and drive another 50 or 80 miles to the next area where there might be someone with hopefully more knowledge???
My problem is this.....I know this isnt going to just be a one time visit, I know they are going to want me to come back, twice, three times, four times, more?
If I have to end up having surgery, this is a burden on my partner who cannot take off work at will.
On my family who would probably have to drive me there and back, as I do not like to drive outside of my comfort zone either.
The lesser of the two evils is looking more desirable as I type.
The problem isnt so much the doctor, I went to this neurologist for quite awhile. It is the wait time to see her, hours and I mean that sincerely.
I have sat in her office up to 3 hours at times.
And the hospital she is affliated with, I do not care for.
But the numbness in my foot is not at all better and doesnt appear to be improving and the orthotics havent come thru yet, still waiting for that call.
So, the decision is becoming easier for me.
Second opinions are always an option.
I just really want to walk and I know if I am ever going to be able to get back to the track I have to take care of this problem.
I guess sometimes talking it thru is a good decision.
Am I going to regret this!!!!
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    I hope you do this. Now. You need to be able to walk pain free. emoticon
    2284 days ago
  • SOFT_VAL67
    Thanks everyone, I made the phone call and now I just wait til they call me back with an appointment, hopefully it will be very soon.
    And yes, I do have a good book I need to find an hour or two to read, thanks for the suggestion.
    2285 days ago
    Hey, I'm right there with you in putting off appointments for myself. My kiddos get everywhere they need to go, but me? The line I usually hear from docs is, "WHY did you wait so long?" Ultimately, though, taking care of things like your foot (and my back) is part of the journey to good health. Good for you for your decision.
    2285 days ago
    I agree with your decision and the other comments. Good for you for making up your mind and moving forward. It can be so hard, but talking yourself through it clearly helped. And using the time waiting as productively as possible will help it feel less burdensome. I hope you get the answers you want!
    p.s. Beautiful dragonflies!
    2285 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/24/2014 5:12:49 PM
    If it's truly not the doctor, then maybe use the time to accomplish something—whatever that something might be. Reading some good books you've been meaning to get to? Writing letters? Researching something/making plans? Does sound to me like a wait in the office is the lesser of two evils.
    2285 days ago
    I would see her and at least get her opinion. At least you will know if it is just numbness due to foot issues - or a more serious problem. You can always get a second opinion from one of those out of town docs if you feel it is necessary. Waiting is not going to solve the issue. It most likely isn't just going to go away!

    As my dear friend tells me, hiding your head in the sand isn't going to keep the lion from biting you in the a**. Be brave, pick up the phone, make the call!

    "Hey Valerie, It's me your foot! I can't feel you! Think you could get someone to check it out? I know, you are busy. I know you are scared. But I really don't like being numbed out all the time! I kinda miss feeling! Thanks!"

    Hope all goes well!
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    2285 days ago
  • GORDON66
    No you won't regret making the appointment. Just show up at the office with a good book, you iPad, crocheting, knitting, whatever. You deserve answers and peace of mind, and this is the way to get both. Good luck!
    2285 days ago
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