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OCD and Me

Thursday, July 31, 2014

In the past there was a saying "when the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping." They didn't realize it at the time but they were suffering from OCD. They went shopping because thing were tough and hard to cope with. When you shop you should purchase things you need or a reward for yourself.

For the last couple of months I have been shopping with no control. I am on medication for OCD; however, it appears that it is no longer working. I realized what was happening to me last Sunday. It scared me beyond words to experience this debilitating disease again. My psychiatrist is out of town. This is not in my counselor's area of expertise.

Although I cleaned my closet out a few months ago, my closet is filled with clothes from wall to wall. The counselor thought I should try to return as many items as I could. Most of the items were over 30 days and I don't have the return receipt. I will not go and beg them to take the items back because the OCD made me do it---yuk, yuk, yuk

Let me tell you a little about how I have felt over these months. While I was sitting at the computer I felt great. My justification was that I deserved these things--I have been very good lately. I would be soaring. When I finished an order and would walk away from my computer, my mental condition would drop through the floor. I always returned to the computer because it made me feel good and I wanted to recapture the good feeling.

Until my psychiatrist returns, I am training my self to understand that I have rewarded myself more than enough and I will buy nothing else. Sometimes it works and sometime it doesn't. As I was writing this it dawned on me that this sounds like a junkie. I only use prescribed drugs (they can't be addictive), I don't drink, and I don't smoke cigarettes.

Just sharing!

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  • SAPHRAEL
    Sorry to hear you're struggling Bettie.
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    2172 days ago
  • SUBMOM2
    Hi Bettie,

    I'm sorry you had this setback, but it sounds like you are trying to get it under control. Telling us about it is a good way to shed some light on it and maybe shopping will lose its appeal. Is there something else you can do when you feel like shopping? Maybe a walk around the block? Go to the library? I wish I could offer more help. Hang in there!
    2199 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    I can completely understand as I have had 2 friends who had an actual addiction to shopping. I ended up having to move in with one of them because she was so out of control that she was buying duplicates of expensive things like large pieces of electronic exercise equipment. The other purchased $30,000 worth of hobby stuff and had to declare bankruptcy. Problems like this can be so compelling.
    2199 days ago
  • KERRYG155
    That sounds really difficult to deal with. Sorry your doctor is not available to help you. Is there a method to help you put stuff on a wish list and not finish the sale? Not dealing with it that's the only idea I have. emoticon
    2199 days ago
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