About 3 months ago I was at work... I should point out here that I work retail at a privately owned store and often work by myself.
Anyway, I was at work and it was one of those slow days. I was doing the weekly inventory count and just felt... blah. I was down and had low energy and just couldn't really get moving. So I decided I needed something to motivate me. I went on to YouTube and did a search for "Motivational Music" and decided on this one:
It was a moment that changed my life. Literally.
If you haven't checked out the link, it's about an hour long and it's made up of music interspersed with quotes from various motivational speeches. Now normally, I'm very put off by motivational speaking (I'm one of those that would sneer and look down at the people who listened to motivational speakers). But... I don't know why, but I listened.
I really listened.
And for whatever reason, it really sunk in. And some quotes really grabbed me. That speech from Rocky Balboa is one of the best monologues ever put on film. "It ain't about how hard your hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!"
Then the Arnold Schwarzenegger part came on. What he said was just... eye opening to me. Like, I knew all this stuff, but for some reason I didn't really KNOW all this stuff until I heard Arnold say it.
And he got to the end... And he spoke that last line...
"You can't climb the ladder of success with your hands in your pockets."
And I felt the fog lift, and suddenly... I was aware.
I got it.
I can't climb the ladder if I don't do the climbing.
If I don't put in the effort.
If I don't try.
And I made the decision right there and then.
"It's time to change."
I've thought it before... many many times before. But this time... I just knew. It was going to happen. I was sure of it.
And it has happened. And Spark People has been a great big help. It has only been a few months, but I KNOW I'm changing for good now.
One step at a time.