Compare and Contrast
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
So yesterday I finally pulled myself out of a two week funk. A funk brought on by learning more about a friend of mine and finding myself unable to stop myself from comparing their life to mine. Them: married, children, good friends, fulfilling job, lots of hobbies and very talented at them. Me: none of the above. Well, almost none of the above. And now I'm jealous. Welcome to the suck-spiral of scorn and questioning whether my life is worth anything.
Please, dear friends reading this, don't fall into the suck-spiral. Comparing your life to someone else's is really rather pointless. And not at all fair. No one has gone through the exact same circumstances in life that you have. Your life is a unique adventure!
And back to me. After several days of self pep talks, I realized that I was way off course. I don't want to get married - never have. I don't want children - I love them, but my pug is plenty for me. My job pays my bills and I have grateful for it. My friend is highly successful in his/her life, but so am I! I can't compare their life with mine because I don't have the same goals or dreams.
Right now, my only goal is getting healthy. I had no idea I was as sick as I was for as long as I was and now that I'm getting better - I want to really get better! And I'm making progress every day. Today, I took my car to the mechanic and walked home from the shop. I've never done that before! It wasn't a long walk - less than a mile and a half, but before today I never would have even considered walking. And today, I was determined! (And I may walk back to pick my car up later - if the weather isn't crazy.) I love the person I am this morning! I love the life I"m living and the choices I'm making.
I have nothing pithy to tie this all up. Comparing you are were with who you are is the only judgement worth your time. Let's be better!
UPDATE! I did walk back to pick up my car this afternoon. And I feel wonderful!