Taking Care Of Business
Monday, September 22, 2014
I have mixed feelings today. I have a friend who passed away because she didn't take care of herself, physically, spiritually, emotionally, you name it. Her family was supposedly going to pull her off life support yesterday. Someone was supposed to call us but we haven't heard anything today. It makes me sad just to think about the fact that if she had only paid closer attention to herself, some of her suffering might have been preventable. I said my good byes to her this past week. She wasn't able to communicate with me, but I know that she knew I was there. The first day, I massaged her hands and feet with lotion and she sighed. I talked to her as I did this and caught her up on everything that was going on since the last time I saw her. The second time I just sat with her and held her hand. I could tell by the strength of her grip on my fingers that she knew I was there. When I felt tears coming, I kissed her on the forehead and left. I didn't expect to return but a mutual friend called DH and I on Friday and asked if we would go with him to the hospital, which we did. The staff told us that since we weren't family, we couldn't visit. I felt bad for our friend who had traveled from Tampa to see her. There was apparently some sort of mix up with the staff and the family was upset that we were turned away. If we had gone on Saturday, we would have gotten in to see her. I made peace with the fact that the essence of her is just no longer on this earth. What I am having trouble with, is how much of her illness could have been prevented if she had paid more attention to diet, overall health, exercise and rest.
If nothing else, her illness has made me stop and take stock of my own life and how I am living it. A wake up call to me of sorts, it is her last gift to me, whether she realized it or not. I can get lost in "what ifs" or I can pay closer attention to my own personal choices and make my life better. That is how I choose to honor her; by taking better care of myself, by paying attention. Make your choices count because they affect your future outcome. Take care of business now, don't put it off until some later date.