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Fighting for a new default setting

Monday, September 29, 2014

So many people struggle with being their own worst enemy...just cruising around SparkPeople clearly demonstrates the truth of that statement. We struggle to maintain motivation, to stay on track, to give ourselves the same respect and encouraging support we give others.

I am so tired of falling into the trap of beating myself up for not being able to do those things consistently. I work hard at keeping myself in a rational frame of mind, and consistently working the problem. But MAN, I do get in my own way a lot.

The first half of this year was not without difficulty, but I keep looking back on it like it was some sort of extended honeymoon with myself. I lost 50 POUNDS for goodness sake! And somehow, in my warped idea factory, I imagine that the next 50 should just FALL off... My rational brain tells me that weight loss is not going to be perfectly paced and linear. My irrational brain says that mine ought to be.

I know I have to keep reminding myself that as long as I keep trying, and keep working on it, and keep loving myself through it, that it WILL work. I am learning how to live a new way...the fact that my unsuccessful default modes are waiting to kick in whenever I falter is not a reason to let them.

Ugh. Monday makes this seem harder.
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    You know, we could all use a case of practicing what we preach. I definitely am not as kind to myself as I am to others. Maybe when we find ourselves with "stinkin' thinkin'" we should think about what we would say to a friend in the same situation. 50 pounds is awesome! You got this! Keep doing what you know works, before you know it you'll be posting your goal weight!
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    2133 days ago

    We need to learn to be our own best cheerleaders! We need to look at our successes and use that as motivation to continue. Look what you did, 50 pounds is AMAZING! Look at all the changes in your life this year and on top of it all did I mention that you lost 50 pounds? The good news is you know how to do this, you also know it's never going to be a straight line from point A to B.

    Tomorrow when you get up, before you feet hit the floor you will remind yourself that you will make good decisions today, you will treat yourself with respect because you earned the right to be respected.
    2136 days ago
    I am proud of you. For so many things too! One day this will all sink in as daily habit and you will wake up and decide to check on how you are and you will look and think...." well hey! look at that!" Sometimes doing without dwelling on why will get us to where we need/want to be faster. Simply because it will feel more natural and not this struggle we fight each day. We all know it is a struggle, but learning to just do (very hard to do btw) and looking back after not dwelling on why helps so much to feel how much we achieve. Like you said! You lost 50 lbs!!!!! That is so amazing!!!! You did so much! You are willing and capable of doing so much more! I know you will. emoticon emoticon
    2136 days ago
    Hi Erin, Again you are writing to me. I have the same problems. This week is my 3rd but seems so much harder.
    Today I say, Erin you have done a wonderful job of losing 50 pound and you will do the next 50 knowing that you are worth the respect from yourself.
    Your friend Donna
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    2136 days ago
    I really believe this is one thing where the old cliche is actually true. The process is way more important than the outcome. Keep making healthy choices and you'll become more healthy. The weight is just a side effect...a symptom. No doubt you'll lose weight in the long run, but just keep focusing on doing what you're doing.
    2136 days ago
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