Fighting for a new default setting
Monday, September 29, 2014
So many people struggle with being their own worst enemy...just cruising around SparkPeople clearly demonstrates the truth of that statement. We struggle to maintain motivation, to stay on track, to give ourselves the same respect and encouraging support we give others.
I am so tired of falling into the trap of beating myself up for not being able to do those things consistently. I work hard at keeping myself in a rational frame of mind, and consistently working the problem. But MAN, I do get in my own way a lot.
The first half of this year was not without difficulty, but I keep looking back on it like it was some sort of extended honeymoon with myself. I lost 50 POUNDS for goodness sake! And somehow, in my warped idea factory, I imagine that the next 50 should just FALL off... My rational brain tells me that weight loss is not going to be perfectly paced and linear. My irrational brain says that mine ought to be.
I know I have to keep reminding myself that as long as I keep trying, and keep working on it, and keep loving myself through it, that it WILL work. I am learning how to live a new way...the fact that my unsuccessful default modes are waiting to kick in whenever I falter is not a reason to let them.
Ugh. Monday makes this seem harder.